Abused (Teacher/student)

Chapter 15

It felt like I had cried for ages in his arms. He ran his fingers through my hair comfortingly. Finally my tears lessened and I sat up straight, I looked up at him. His eyes were still on my scars, I could see the pain in his eyes. 

"I-Im s-s-sorry for everything." I whispered. He cupped my face and brushed the hairs out of my eyes, staring deeply into them. 

"You have nothing to apologise. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Look I'm not going to push you to say anything.... just know I'm here.... I'm always going to be here for you." He repeated. 

It was odd, I'd never felt genuine compassion and kindness like this before. It was like my soul was contempt for once - in his arms. 

He tilted my face gently and slowly lent in, placing a soft kiss on my cheek. I felt my heart miss a beat. I never wanted to leave his arms, I felt so safe and happy. 

"I really wanna help Rose...." He said again, his eyes were red. Did he cry aswell? Had I not noticed? 

"Everythings okay. I'm sorry. I'm just stupid sometimes." I whispered, combing my hands through his hair. Our faces were so close. 

"Rose, it's okay to not be okay. And you're obviously not okay." He stroked my cheek. “Please don’t lie to me though… its so much harder to help if you lie. Look you don’t have to tell me anything if you don’t want.”

 

I nodded slowly. “There are things I cant tell you.” My voice wavered again. “I’m sorry.”

 

“Don’t apologise!” He said again. “Listen Rose, you are one of the most beautiful people ive ever seen. Not only that, but youre beautiful in the inside and out. You’re so funny, and clever and so kind. God it hurts me to see you in pain.”

 

My face went all red. I quickly shook my head “no im not-” He placed a finger over my lips. “Rose…” He breathed. “Please… I mean it. Youre beautiful, youre kind, youre smart, youre important.”

 

I giggled and stared at him warmly, it was like my heart was dancing.

 

“I..” He paused and bit his lip. “I really like you… More than ive liked anyone in my life.” 

 

I looked at him in confusion. Theres no way he meant it like that? He likes me maybe as a friend. “C-Caleb?”

 

Before I could finish my sentence, I felt his lips on mine. I gasped against his lips, he softly kissed me. My mind went blank and my heart raced faster then it had ever done before. He moved one of his hands to the back of my head and the other hand cupped my cheek still.

 

Before I knew it, I was kissing back. My arms wrapped around his neck. I lightly moaned against his lips, it was like I had no control over my body. I couldn’t believe what was happening. I felt like I was floating.

 

Suddenly he pulled away. I opened my eyes and stared at him in confusion. “Oh my god. Rose, Im so sorry. That was so wrong of me. Im your teacher. Youre my student.”

 

He jumped up quickly, making me fall onto my back against the sofa. “Fuck… have I taken advantage of you…. Fuck… Rose Im so sorry.” He ran his hands through his hair and looked at me manically. “Should I hand myself in?”

 

“Caleb!” My voice surprised myself. “What are you on about?”

 

“Im so sorry. Did I just force myself onto you?” He looked at me horrified.

 

I frantically shook my head. “No of course not!” I paused. “I liked it. And you were far from taking advantage of me.” I giggled, I still felt like I was floating. Goddddd I cant believe I just kissed him

 

His shoulders finally relaxed. “You liked it- No…. Rose that was so wrong of me-“

 

“I wont tell anyone…”

 

“No that was still wrong of me. Im so sorry. Ill never do something like that again.”

 

I felt my smile disappear… never again?? “ohh…why not?” I murmured to myself. I didn’t notice that Caleb had heard.

 

Out of the blue my phone started ringing. I looked at the caller ID. Crap.

 

“Wait don’t go yet-” Caleb whined. I answered my phone and looked at him shyly. 

 

“WHAT TIME DO YOU CALL THIS? WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU? THERES NO FUCKING DINNER FOR ME. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO EAT? WHERE ARE YOU? DON’T FUCKING BOTHER COMING HOME. STUPID FUCKING BITCH.” My dad screamed over the phone so loud Caleb could hear. My face went bright red. One my dad hung up, I manically grabbed everything.

 

“Im so sorry for today. I must of lost track of time. Um… thankyou for everything.” I quickly said and before Caleb could reply I had already run out of his apartment.

 

Even though Dad had screamed at me, everything inside me was warm and contempt. I just kissed Caleb Harding. I don’t know what this weird feeling is inside me… but I like it.

 
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IM SO SO SO SO SORRY I NEVER UPDATED. I feel like ever time I get a hold of myself, life gets shitty.

I feel like this chapters bad. And I feel like nobodys gonna read it. I fucked up another good thing in my life :( I'm so sorry guys xx