ppgz: no one understands me

chapter 13. one cliche aftermath

  hey all my kitty fans. this will be a really intense/ sad chpter so u might need some really intense music

blossoms pov

blur...blur.... my life's a blur. the lst think i remember is felling what i've always felt inside. sadness. then it's a blur. nothing but black blur darkness inside. god have i died yet.all my life is ...is a wreck.. i'm life a fish trying to drive a boat. i'm going to crash into so many things in the sea of life so why do i even bother to put up with this. with life. all this petty shit. i hope when i was  out beserk striked me really hard.

i m  j u s t  u s l e s s

u s l e s s

u s l e s s

...................................

then my eyes poped open. i slowly got up. is this life. then i saw bubbles and buttercup sleeping in the cornor. on a couch. we were in the lab. wait......i'm alive. great. why must i be put through this torcher. then i curled up in a ball. i felt like crying.

then bubbles woke up.

'' blossom your ok. thank god.''

'' yeah... i'm ok''

 then i stared at her dead in the face. she knew what i was thinking

'' he's on the roof''

'' thanks'' i hugged her.

i walked up the roof... this is where it all goes down. i have to make this up to him. i'm done with lying.

{ a/n. ok start with the intense music} { i was listening to ''how to save a life'' by the fray and i'm using it in my chapter because i really love it}

then i opened the door. brick was sitting on the edge of the building. i wasn't worried about what would happen to him because he had his belt. i was worried about what would happen to us.

'' brick.......'' thats all i could say th words were stuck in my throat not like they wouldd mean or change anything anyway

'' blossom.........'' he didn't even look at me.

'' i- i - um. we need t- to talk.

'' whats there to talk about... nothing.. u lied to me.. period.

'' i didn't lie''

'' the hell you didn't ..... i knew there was something about u that wasn't right. i mean i thought u were Just suprernatural...... BUT WHEN I FINALLY SAW THAT DAM BELT...... u were a dead giveaway''

'' ........................'' the tears were flowing as the sky turned gray  from my emotions. it was raining lightly just like my tears

''  just one question... why did you have to lie.... huh.. why. we had a good relationship. i actually liked you. i felt your petty shit feelings.but no you keep everything to your self. your just a big fucking sea of emotions. how do your sisters deal with you. why do you lie every day. are you some potential liar. huh blossom if thats even your real name.huh. ANSWER THE DAM FUCKING QUESTION''. he screamed at me with a few tears

thats it i couldn't take it my tears were flowing and so was the rain and my emotions.'' BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!!!! ok . are you happy. you were such a nice guy. i couldn't bear the pain of u being hurt or possibly smashing my face in.i wanted this relationship to work ok. so i lied to you my sisters an even myself.'' 

it thundered and there was lightning.

''................'' then brick just turned away and walked

'' w- w- w- where a- are you g-  going. were not done.'' i said chocking on tears

''the fuck i'm not. i- cant even fucking look at u right now.... u... u cunt. u expect me to talk.'' then tugged on his shirt.

'' your not g-g-going anywher'-'

then he slapped me. WHICH SHOCKED ME. and also didnt shock me. all i could do was sit here and let the the tears rush down my face.

then he just floated away in to the dark clouds. my first bestfirnd and maybe even boyfriend. and i messed it up.

i'm such a stupid ugly unloved idiot.........................why is my life such bullshit !!!!!!!!!!!!