Eventual Serenity

Chapter 7: The Agony

I stumble through the door hours later as the sun begins to drop. I don't want to seem clingy but I need to text this guy, we need to have a text relationship, I need a boyfriend!

I go to my room and begin to pace. 'Should I do it? Should I text?!?' I think to myself as I stare at the time: 6:30. I need this. I dive onto my bed and start viciously texting him.

"Hey Nick! It's me Rose, from today, hehe, txt back cutie? :* :) :) :* :*"

"Nah, too retarded." I delete the whole message and start again.

"Hey Nick, it's Rose."

...way too distant. I delete the text again.

"Hey Nick! It's Rose from today, text back when you can."

I think... I think this may be the one. With caution, I send the text, reading over it again and again so I don't mess it up. Seconds, minutes go passed, still no reply. He's probably just busy?

I gallop into the kitchen wanting dinner. They've already sat down to eat: mum only put 2 plates out. I frown and walk into the kitchen.

"Only two plates mum?" I say with a tug in my voice.

"I didn't know if you were going to be coming home tonight, you've been on edge ever since you've come home." Mum said without a sense of emotion in her voice.

I prepare my dinner on my plate: steak and mash potatoes.

I sit down at the dinner table in pitch silence. Just like in the movies. No one showed emotion, just awkward stares at each other when we decide to chew.

"Okay, what's the big deal? What's going on? What's with the silence?" I just couldn't take the silence anymore, it was deafening.

Joel decides to speak up, "we have something to tell you, we just don't know how you're going to take it..." My mum interrupts him.

"This has been going on for some time now... I'm not as old as you think I am, I'm only 35 and Joel is a great guy, we have a good relationship going on, we just want you to feel 100% comfortable in front of us. We're a family now"

'We're a family now'... Yeah, nah, we're not. I look at them both awkwardly, not knowing what's going to happen next. Joel stands up and stands behind my mother. They look at each other and smile, then back at me.

Joel speaks up, "this has been happening for quite some time now, I love your mother a lot and it's finally become pretty serious." My mum starts to embrace the moment and nearly squeals. They were about to say something when I hear my message tone. I run into my room to check my messages

'I can't believe he actually texted me back' I thought, 'it's finally happening!'

I ran with excitement to my phone to read the preview of my text message to see:

"You have approx 10 MB data left.Data will then be charged from your Flexible Credit."

I nearly broke my phone. "THIS IS NOT THE TIME, PHONE. PIECE OF SHIT." I yell at the top of my lungs. I throw my phone in the corner of my room and walk back to the dinner table. I sit back down with a depressed look on my face and stare at my potatoes. 'Why me?' I think to myself, being the typical teenage girl everyone hates. 'I suppose, he's bound to text me back one of these days?'

I look up at my mum and Joel and they're staring at me intently.

"What?" I said, like everything was about me.

"You're such a bitch..." Mum said as she started crying and leaving the room.

"What the fuck did I do now?!?" I started yelling, I can't take this anymore.

Joel sat down. "You're so insensitive, we were going to tell you some wonderful news and you didn't even care. Be happy for your mum, just once!"

"Who cares anymore, it's not like she even cares about me. I don't really care what's happening in her or your life" I said with a stubborn look on my face.

"Well, just to let you know, we're engaged. The wedding is happening next year."

With those words he stood up and stormed out. I was left speechless. "What the fuck?" I said to myself. My new step father is going to be 6 years older than me, how lovely. What are people going to think? I can't tell anybody, that's so embarrassing. And to think, I thought he was attractive... I push my plate away because of my lost apatite and walk to my room. I collapse on my bed with no other comment and grab my phone from the floor: still no messages.

I decide to text him again, maybe he didn't get the first message.

"Omg, text back, I need to tell you something!"

I send the message, this time, with no caution. I need to talk to Nick, I need to know what his favourite band is! I put my phone on my bed side table and then on my stereo. I start to blare out some Hollywood Undead music to drown out the world around me.

'A new dad, huh?' I still can't comprehend this thought. How did this even happen?! I close my eyes and start thinking about life. I don't know where to go from here. What even is life?

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