HEARTLESS LOVE!!

Chapter - 1

Those days were good when I had nothing to think about. Just playing around and no tension of studies or anything. When no one said that now I must stop doing all childish stuff and behave like a grown up. Those days when I did not have to worry about taking decisions. When I never feared anything. When I was ready to take up any challenge in front of me. Those were the days when I actually never thought what others thought about me. Actually that was the time when I didn't even know that even others have a mind with which they think. But as days passed, they turned into weeks, then into months and finally into years. I don't remember the time when I got the sense of thinking, the time when I started taking my own decisions, the time when I started worrying about small problems and began to think what others might think about me if I did that. I don't remember how or when that Ajay changed into the current Ajay. I still wish I could go back into those days. Be the Ajay I was then. Just stay free of all worries and be fearless for whatever lay ahead me.

But thinking about the past won't change the present. The future that I will face depends truly upon my present which I can handle. The way I live the present might actually change a lot in the future. Though the much I think about my present the more of that present becomes the past. My present can be braided into a wonderful future but the complex way in which this present is entangled. Combing it would definitely hurt many in a rough way, friends and foes alike. The time from when I remember my story became jumbled up was when I was in class eight.

I was a studious kind of a boy. I was the unpopular one, who had just a handful of friends most of whom were just there to use me. I remember myself being kind and helpful but still almost everyone avoided me. I was not good at any subject except Maths. I loved science but the way the education system wanted me to learn my favourite subject kept me far away from being the topper. Those were the days when I thought just about 2 things day and night, one, science and the other why people hate me or why they avoided me. This year I got to know why.

When I had joined this school the previous year, I was a very obedient student especially to teachers. I did everything that would keep me in their good books. I even complained about many students who did wrong things in the class. This thing was hated by most of the students. They thought I was a complaint box. One day when they were doing a prank on one of our teachers, one of my friends pointed out that I would complain about them. So everyone pushed me to the backside of the class and warned me not to complain. I agreed to it, making sure that I would not be blamed for any of the prank that they were doing. Their plan was very successful indeed. Our teacher was frightened and she just shouted like anything. After the commotion about the prank died, our teacher was very angry and so she asked everyone who was responsible for that. No one replied, so she then asked me as she knew I was very obedient. My heart began pounding very fast. I could not think what to do. My heart suggested me to tell a lie and save my friends, but my brain said that to hide one lie, one has to speak a hundred lies. One day or the other my classmates were going to be caught, so I decided to tell her the truth that how my friends planned to trick with her and how they warned me. My friends were very angry with me. They wished I was not their classmate and started spreading rumours about me and ignored me.

From that day onwards, even now they think that I am not to be trusted. The day I realised this was too late. I had lost all my friends. And then I was determined to clear that complaint box from my name. I wanted a good name in school. I wanted good friends who would be there when I was in need. I wanted to understand where my aim was or where I was destined to go. The decisions I took later actually put me into something that I never expected. I fell in LOVE.....

It all starts from when I was in class 7......