The demons inside my head

two

Nothing will ever chance. It will always be the same. It's not that people will like me all of the sudden. No matter how hard I try. If i'm alone I will stay alone. And no that doesn't have to be forever but it will be for a long time. And there are two ways to look at that. In the beginning I was sad and I tryed to make friends. But if I look back to the reason why i wanted to make friends so despertly that wasn't because i needed them. It was because i was afraid to be alone. The idea of no one next to you and really being alone forever. But now i've been alone for a longer time I don't even try anymore. Because why would I ? Did it ever work ? Do you think the people really liked me ? Yes ? Well your wrong. The people liked the person I pretended to be to become friends with them. If I show them who I really am they wont stay by my side. they will rund away from me and never talk to me again. 

sometimes being alone is better that being with someone else