Amber:
The school year was almost over, and I was glad. I was finishing the rest of my homework and decided to watch my favorite movie BELLY. Keisha dumb ass fuck to take Tommy cheating ass back when he clearly doesn't love her like he says he do. And he a nasty ass perv to be letting a 16-year-old suck him up, I thought to myself watching the scene where Keisha and Tanya where going back and forth over the phone.
I was eating a Jamaican Pattie and just chilling. I really like chilling by myself less drama. I was interrupted in my thoughts when my best friend facetimed me.
Keairra:
Damn all ya ass do is sit at home, watch movies and eat.
Amber:
you know I like staying home
Keairra:
You need a nigga, what happen to the boy who kickback we went to? He was feelin you
Amber:
Yea, I just feel like he just gone hit and leave like the last nigga.
Keairra:
Fuck Tyrell, that's why his dumb ass lost that scholarship to play football.
Amber
Me and Tyrell was messing around for a whole year, and I thought having sex with him would make him care about me, but he didn't it just seems that I was that "freshmen fucking a senior". But karma is a bitch you know why? His dumb ass leaked a video off him getting head and the college he wanted to go to drop his whole scholarship now he is working at Mc Donald's. Yea the popular quarterback who thought he was going to NFL working at Mc Donald's it cracks me up too.
"I'm so over him tho" I told Keairra.
Keairra:
And you should be, don't be thinking it's okay for niggas to treat you like that Amber.
Amber:
I know I replied, not wanting to hear the rest of the lecture.
I got up and took a shower, it was now noon. Damn, I've been in bed all day looking at my clock on the night stand. I decided to go Zaxby's and get me some food for me and my mom when she got off work.
She worked as a nurse at the Memorial Hospital. She been working long shifts ever since my older brother Darius got killed. Maybe working keeps her mind off things, I guess.
I got in my Jeep and went Zaxby's.
Amber:
yes, can I get two dinners please.... Um pink lemonade and a cherry coke...
damn those to plates came up to 20$. I rolled up to the first window and paid then continued to the second window.
Employee:
Can you pull up, we'll bring it out to you
Amber:
No thanks, I rather sit here, there's hardly anyone out here tonight.
Coming to this ghetto ass zaxby's they want to take an hour for fast food when you pull up and I don't got time for that tonight so no, I'll wait like I said.
Employee:
Ugh, it'll be out in five
Amber:
"Thanks" I said with a fake smile
I got my food and rode back home. Luckily my mom was home.
"Hey momma". I said kissing her cheek,
Momma:
Hey mi babi, I wi looking fo ya. Aww how sweet of ya, ye brought ye mother sum food.
Amber:
Yea ma, I thought I should treat you after a long day at work. You know ...why do you work all the time now... ever since Darius died you been isolating yourself at work.
Momma:
"I get mi sum rest aye hear, had a long dey at work. Very tied Amber". My mother said, grabbing the food and heading to her room.
I went to Darius room and sat on the bed. I started pulling out pictures of us when we were little.
Maaaaaaaaaaaa Darius took my teddy bear. My 7-year-old self said in the back of the car.
"She need to stop having that bear with her all the time, she bout to be eight with a damn teddy bear, people gone think she retarded, and ion want nobody thinking I'm slow too" he argued back.
"Both of ya shut ye mouth ya hear, I'm tied of ya going back en forth again nd again. And boy don't I ever hear ya cuss again, or I'll rip ya bottom, understand me"? my mother told us still driving.
"Yes ma'am" both me and Darius said with our head down.
"good now let's have a good time at the beach" momma said.
The memory started to fade as I noticed I was putting tears on the photo of me and Darius at the beach. We looked so happy it was a simpler time back then.
I could understand how my momma feels about Darius, being her first born and only getting pregnant at 14 being a single mother from Trinidad moving to the States alone. It was just her and him for a long time before I came around. Darius father had gotten into some motorcycle accident 3 months before he was even born. So, he didn't have a father figure, making him turn to the streets. I don't remember my father that much either, all I know is when he found out my mother got pregnant he dipped.
I put the pictures away and just laid there crying.
I'm sorry Darius, that you had to go through what you went through. I know I was a little girl at the time, but we still could've talked because I love you. Now I don't have a big brother who can guide me. Teach me all the games y'all niggas run on us. I chuckled a little. I got up and turned the light off and wiped my last tear and headed up to my room.
