Quando
Let me talk to you for a sec ma
(amber was coming out the bathroom heading to the front door, leaving after a long night)
Amber
You good? Need me to bring anything back? You....
Quando
(laughs) I'm good. I was thinking about you in jail. I need somebody to hold me down. I needed you last night and you were there for me, I need that in my life. I need you to be my girl amber.
Amber
Your girl? Tyquain I've been hurt so many times, its hard to put my trust in somebody. And the life you live I don't wanna get so attached to you and you leave this world. I really like you.... I do I think you moving too fast right now.
Quando
I'm not like all those other niggas. I'm not gone hurt you. I want to love you, I need you.
Amber
But I know you gone hurt me.... that love shit doesn't work with me it fails every time. Can we just be friends first?
Quando
Alright man, if that's how you feel... I'll be your friend first.
She was leaving out the door and told me to call her later if I needed anything after the funeral. I went to my room and hung up fit for tomorrow. Man, I couldn't believe tomorrow was going to be the last time I see my best friend. He always talked about how rich we we're going to be and how we we're going to get the hell out of Savannah, Georgia.
"Tyquiando, aye man you a fool for this one, you gone be rich off this song" Quaffy said.
"man, you always say that, but ain't nobody gone sign me" I replied
"cuz stop doubting ya self all the time" he told me patting my back.
I started to cry, this shit really hurt. Can you imagine losing your best friend, when times got rough you had somewhere to go, a nigga that never folded, not even once? My mom worked all her life having me at 17, so Quaffy was the only nigga I really hanged with before I gotten myself into the streets.
I layed there until I went to sleep. "Tyquian baby wake up we gotta be ready by 9:00"my momma said.
"Alright ma" I said back.
She sat beside me and rubbed my back "everything is gonna be okay, Quaffy is in a better place Tyquian, don't blame yourself about it okay"?
I got up and took a shower then put my clothes on. I don't think I was ready for this.
The funeral had a closed casket as what I expected. One of his little cousins on his momma side came up and sung. At the end, everybody came and gave me hugs and kisses and now we we're headed to the burial site.
"dust to dust, ashes to ashes"
Man, I lost it. My best friend was going into the ground and I was never gone see him again.
"Quaffy" "Quaffy" I cried out. "please, I'll trade place with you".
"baby back of from the whole" my mother said pulling me back.
We went to his grandmother's house and we ate. I was ready to go home, to be honest. I didn't want to sit around people who kept telling me everything is gone be okay and rubbing my back.
I saw amber to text me when I was at the funeral. Asking me did I need anything or wanted a friend to talk too.
I texted her back telling her I simply needed to be alone for the rest of the night as she said she understands.
