My Best Friend and I

Little too late

I wake up at my usual time 6:17am. I go pee and then make my way down stairs and I hear Mason talking to someone and then a female voice answer him. Theres a girl in my house. What the hell?

I walk into the kitchen and wait for Mase to introduce me to his "friend"

She is short and pretty skinny. She has dark brown hair and brown eyes. In all honesty she looks like she's 12.

"Morning El, I'd like you to meet Annie. Annie this is my best friend Elizabeth."

"Morning. It's nice to meet you Elizabeth. My Mason has said so much about you! I'm so happy I finally got to meet you!!'

Right after she said that all I did was mock her in a little squeeky voice in my head. I know, I know. It's rude but Im not a morning person and theres a weird girl in my house. 2 words kept repeating in my head. MY MASON. 

I asked Mason if I could speak to him privately in the living room.

"Whats up El?"

"okay 1, WHY THE FUCK IS THERE A 12 YEAR OLD GIRL IN MY HOUSE AT 6:30 IN THE MORNING? and 2, WHY IS SHE SAYING "MY MASON"?"

"okay 1, I invited her over for breakfast before school. i met her while i was waiting for you. Shes is a fresman and i thought she was cute so we exchanged numbers. 2: She said "My Mason" because we texted all night and I may or may not have asked her out....."

I stormed away and went to go get ready for school. As soon as i was ready to goI sat in the car and waited for Mason. I wasn't going to talk about her anymore. she didnt deserve my masey poo. I did but I gave up because if I didnt have the guts to tell him I don't think I truly deserved him. 

I called mikey and told him what happened when I finished my homework after dinner. I told him all about how I walked in and and how she called him "her Mason" when really he should be my mason. He asked me what the little and I quote him "slut bucket" names was. I completely spaced. I forgot her name.

"I'm being serious here mikey, I have no Idea"

"Okay well let's call her "Hoochie"."

"Ha thats perfect because I asked Christian today at school and he said she has been "around" if you catch my drift."

"Ooh honey, thats no good. Did you tell Mason?"

"No I dont want him to flip out on me and leave."

"Okay well you think about it and get back to me when you figure out what you're gonna do. If you need help you know where to find me. I don't care what time it is. I want you to call me."

"Okay I will. Goodnight Love you"

"Night Poop. Love you too"

The call ended with me thinking about how, when, where, and what I was gonna tell Mason, and why he called me "Poop".  I was already in my pj's and snuggled in my bed with John Green's The Fault In Our Stars when I called mikey. So I turned off my loght and turned my bedside lamp on. 

""That's the thing about pain," Augustus said, and then glanced back at me. "It demands to be felt.""

I reread that line from the book god knows how many times thinking about the truth in the quote. I wasn't mad at him. In all honesty I was mad at myself. Mad at myself because I never had the balls to tell him how I really feel or show him or whatever. 

I thought about this way too hard already. I was on the verge of tears and I wasn't about to cry myself to sleep. Today was already bad enough, trying to pretend you dont love someone and like everything is okay when it isn't. Believe me I know every teenager has been through this before if not many times. 

After a couple minutes of trying to pull myself together I did something I thought I wouldnt do. I walked into his room and saw him lying down on his bed facing towards the wall. I walked over and crawled into his bed with my back against his chest. I knew he wasn't asleep because he still had his covers on. When he sleeps his body gets extremely hot so he always kicks his covers off so he doesn't overheat. 

"Hey beautiful. Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine i just had a bad dream so I came in here. I hope that's okay with you."

"It's fine with me. What was your dream about?"

"Well I dreamt that you got really mad at me and you left the house and never came back."

Within me saying that one scentence he managed to slowly snake his arm around my body and his hand into mine intelocking our fingers.

"You know I'd never do that to you. Don't you?"

"Yeah, I know."

"You know I love you, right?"

Hearing him say that I couldn't help but shed a tear or two. I pretended to be asleep until I actually fell asleep. He played with my hair and kissed my head a few times. I don't know why, shouldn't he be doing this with his girlfriend? I slowly drifted to sleep after a couple of minutes of him playing with my hair. It was so soothing and I just couldn't keep my eyes open any longer.

"Ellie? I know you're asleep, but I just to tell you how I feel. Im so confused. Sometimes I can kinda catch little things that make me think you like me, but when you tell me your happy that I found someone like Annie it makes me think you dont and that you are just my best friend. But anways it's whatever right? I'm too scared you're gonna reject me if I get the balls to ask you out. You've always been a great listener. Thanks for that. Sweet dreams, no more nightmares. Goodnight."

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THANKS FOR READING!!!!!!!!!

Most of this chapter actually happened. Like Annie, we never formally met but I dont like her and I knew she didn't like me. I did forget her name and I called her "Hoochie" for about a month. I feel bad but she was one.....

Thanks again

Much much much love,

Cutiepie-11