Platonic or not, why do I always fail at them?
Honestly, the two people I put my entire life onto dont say a word to me unless I try first, 90% of the time. Is that what I get?
What did I do this time?
A couple days ago I had a panic attack and I spent the whole time staring ata wall and scratching at my arm.
And I discovered a lot of things and I've been feeling a little better since I figured myself out, I guess? I still hurt.
Dani told me that she calls Spud all the time, apparently. She rarely ever talks to me! I understand I'm just some extra bitch to deal with but I'll do anything for that affection! She tried to play it off like 'since shes always on her phooone and' etc etc, but she knows all I do is sit on my phone and hope someone gives me the time of fucking day. If all I'm for is holding some fucking memes and whatever, why don't you just say so.
And, and I have a roleplay partner who I just wanna be friends with, she's so funny and talented and just WOW!!
But I know she only talks to me because I roleplay pretty okay, Im subpar at best but she likes it enough, and also I always!! Praise her and agree with her and I don't do anything wrong I think and yet I always do and
Please someone
Anyone
Care about me.
