Reflection of me

17

Taylor

Here I was laying in my bed staring at the white walls. I was so confused & hurt, I played Brian Snapchat over and over again. Tears rolled down my eyes seeing Brian brother have strippers be all over Brian. I could clearly tell Brian was under the influence but it still was no excuse for his decision what the hell was he doing drinking and smoking anyways. I called his phone repeatedly and still got ignored. Embarrassed wasn't even the feeling I felt right now. I was more angry, angry for getting my feelings so invested in his dumbass.

I wasted no time logging onto my twitter and making a tweet that read "I'm single." I was tired of crying over him every weekend

I grabbed my purse and slid my shoes on, I needed an explanation and right now heading over his house was what I needed to do.

After my taking a ride in a uber to Brian house. I took a deep breathe before knocking on the door. My outfit was very revealing and I don't normally dress this way however I wanted Brian to know what he was missing out on

"Taylor— what you doing here ?" Brian said as he opened the door. I pushed passed him not looking him in the eyes.

"Is that even a question ? Cheating ass bitch." I yelled

"You should chill, Taylor I'm not cheating on you." He spoke softly

"I shouldn't of let them girls dance on me but it was a party baby... I'm sorry." He responded before pulling me close

"But why?" I responded

"My brother wants me to follow in the family foot steps and honestly that means being around bitches all the time and doing things you wouldn't like." He said

"Things like what Brian." I asked

"Look I've been selling drugs and been distance from you because I don't wanna see you hurt." He said

For some reason I soften up seeing the hurt in his eyes.. Brian wants to be a football player or basketball player and I can imagine how hurt he must be to have parents that wanna see him down

"You look sexy baby." Brian said breaking the silence before grabbing my hand. I followed him to his room

"You promise you didn't have sex with anyone?" I asked him

He kissed his teeth "I wouldn't do that too You Taylor.. I'm waiting for you."

"What if I told you I'm ready." I told him. I didn't know what I was thinking but the thought of him being with another girl made me regret not having sex with him sooner

He wasted no time pulling my dress up and sliding my panties off. My body became warm as his tongue found his way to my clit.. I covered my mouth with my hands not wanting him to hear my moans.. I was always shy when it came to anything sexual

"Stop covering your face Taylor."he spoke softly as he moved my hands going even harder than before my moans escaped

When he finally stopped he chuckled at how shaky my body was from me cumin.

"Condom Brian." I told him realizing he was about to go inside of raw

"I don't have a condom Taylor... I told you I haven't been having sex." He responded 

"Okay please don't cum in me." I responded

He slid out of his boxers, placing his body on top of me.. he slid his his head to my entrance and my body instantly jerked realizing how bad it was hurting.

"If you want me to stop let me know." He whispered

I shook my head no.. I sucked up the pain that was occurring until he found his way inside me.

"I love you Taylor." He said causing my moans to become louder as the pain turned into pleasure. Moments went by and we found ourself fucking again and this time it felt even better.. I hope I didn't make an mistake but what can I say I love him