ivy sky // na jaemin [on hold]

o n e | memories

"hi soojung, how are you?" i smiled as i look over her grave. this may be shocking for you. but yes i've lost soojung a year ago.

-flashback-

"where are you?" i asked through the phone. im getting worried. soojung hasn't comeback and it's almost 9 pm.

"im sorry honey, im still on my way home." she said while laughing. is this some kind of a joke to her? what if she's cheating? i mean who knows.

yes you can call me an overprotective boyfriend. soojung already said that to me but i really don't care. im doing what i think it's right.

"jaemin. i really am walking home right now from work. i know what you're thinking right now. also it's raining i might have to catch the earlier bus." she said. i can hear her running.

water also can be heard. "im going to cross the road." i can hear her foot splashing through the water. "soojung be careful-"

before i can say anything else, a loud sound can be heard through the phone. and she hung up. i looked over my phone and started panicking.

i looked over the window and heard car honking at the street. light beams can be seen. i took my raincoat and ran downstairs.

i went out from my apartment and ran really fast. after a couple of minutes running and bumping people along the sidewalk, i finally reached the place.

i stop my breathing and i couldn't process everything that just happened. and ambulance can be heard from a distance. i couldn't move.

all i knew was, i've lost her.

i put down the bouquet of flowers on her grave. today is her birthday. all my brothers are here. they also bought her flowers.

"i hope she's doing okay." mark hyung said while giving me a reassuring smile to me. "yeah she's in a better place now." chenle adds.

i smiled at them showing them that im okay. and the truth is i am. i began to let her go slowly. and yeah she's in a better place now.

"c'mon let's go home." i said to them. they all nodded and we went back to our own car. ofc like a lonely man i am right now, im alone. it sure as hell felt different without soojung beside me.

i let out a sigh and continue to drive. i stopped at a cafe for a while to get a coffee. i could use some coffee right now after a long day.

when i get inside the cafe, the line is really long. i hate waiting while standing and so i decided to sit down and wait for the line to finish.

while waiting, of course i like to be on my phone. chatting with my brothers. asking their love life. man, i must be the lonely man among my siblings.

as my i got carried away, i heard a little kid talking to me. "excuse me mister, can i sit with you? you seems to be alone and there's no seats left." he said.

i smiled and nodded, gesturing him to seat in front of me. he thanked me and sat happily. "are you alone? where's your parents?" i asked.

"my mom is still working, i went to see her but she told me to sit and wait for dad to pick me up." he answered. "your mom worked here?" i asked.

he only nodded and smiled. such a polite little kid. "what's your name?" i asked in full curiosity. "my friends called me mansoo. what about you mister?"

"just call me nana." i smiled. he nodded happily and suddenly looked over the window. "that's my dad! im going first! bye mister, its nice to meet you!" he said and ran outside.

i dont get a chance to say goodbye to him since he ran immediately. i let out a chuckle and glance over the line. it's not that long anymore so i got up and went to order.

[ eun's pov ]

"yeah im on my way home now." i said to sanha. "are you still far away? manman is waiting for you." sanha said through the phone.

"tell manman i'll be home in a minute." i smiled and chuckled. he hummed and hung up. after that i ran towards my apartment because im not that far.

in fact the apartment building is right in front of me. i laughed on how impatient my child and my husband is.

you probably wondering why i married to sanha. my aunt told me that she found sanha beated out and asked for help to my aunt. she took him to her house and let him stay there.

so sanha isn't technically my aunt's son but she took care of him like he is her son. after i found out my aunt told me to be with sanha because she trust sanha more than she trust any other boys back in the day.

and the fact that i'm way too lazy tbh to be with someone else i barely know. so i agree with her and be with sanha. our relationship is good, we never really fought. mainly because sanha is a goofy man.

he may be old but his face isn't. also his personality is pretty funny for his age. being with sanha makes me forget about jaemin. but sometimes,

i missed him so much that it hurts.