ivy sky // na jaemin [on hold]

s e v e n t e e n | confusion

as we drive past the neighborhood, i feel somewhat nostalgic? I don't know, the roads leading towards the mansion just swing past my mind all over again. haven't been here in awhile, i miss it.

"are you okay sweetie? you haven't been talking much today. is everything okay?" my vision went back to reality. my head turned to sanha and i gave him a smile as an answer. I looked over to the back to see mansoo dozing off. it is quite past his bedtime.

"here we are. wow, i've forgotten how big this mansion is." Sanha said as we past the front gate. "it has been a long time." I mumbled to myself. this is crazy. I used to freaking lived on this house. that was a very very very long time ago.

"both you and mansoo can go inside first. i'll catch up with you later after i park the car." sanha smiled and I did as he said.

I wake mansoo up and pick his little body up from the car seat. we are greeted by the guards who's smiling at us and gestures us to come in. when the front door opened, all i can do is silently gasped at how huge this house is. wow, i never realized this.

"hey you're here!" chenle run towards us as he excitedly wanting to hold mansoo. mansoo just giggled. "must've been really good to be back huh?" jeno asked.

i in the verge of crying. this is just too much for me.

"eun! we're so glad to be finally meeting you again!" mom and dad hugged me as they see me arrived. oh wow this is really too much for me. i could just broke down and cry right here right now.

i hugged them really tight while holding the tears from coming out. i really don't want to embarrass myself in front of them. i don't want to look weak.

"your eyes are sweating there." donghyuck said.

fuck you.

i glared at him and i could feel a single tear just left my eyes. "it's just- it's really really good to be back and visit you all after a really long time." i said to mom while smiling.

i can definitely tell that she just awed in her heart. "noona!" jisung came up to me with an open heart which i accept it afterwards. "you're getting prettier and prettier everytime we meet noona." he said.

i laughed, i look damn well like a trash but ok.

"thank you! and you look- taller. i feel triggered." i jokingly said. "are you kidding me right now? if you feel triggered then how do you think i feel?" donghyuck interrupt.

honestly, can't believe jisung is legitimately taller than donghyuck. the last time i remembered donghyuck was taller than him. what happened?

"maybe puberty missed you when you're 18" renjun said while laughing and only to be stared at by donghyuck.

i chuckled. yes, they're still the one i used to know back in teenage years.

i was so caught up with their jokes that i didn't even realize jaemin is here. he looks, really dashing.

i then immediately look away when he turned his vision towards me. why am i nervous of meeting him? we don't- we aren't- we haven't-

"you guys! come sit, dinner is about to be served." said chenle who is already sitting on his chair next to mansoo.

after that, we all sit on our chosen chairs. i save up the chair next to me for sanha. what took him so long?

nonetheless, i crave for all the food that is on the table right now. i forgot how tasty the food they serve here. i miss this so much.

"i'm sorry, i had to answer a phone call just then." sanha then come in after awhile. then i gesture him to sit next to me.

"nono it's alright, we're about to say prayers too so you aren't really missing out. and you must be sanha?" dad asked.

"yes sir. i'm eun's spouse." he answered.

"you're really handsome. you're so lucky to have him eun." mom said while smiling at me. i returned her smile, but then i glance over to jaemin.

he looks bothered. why though?

"well, let's not waste anymore time shall we? let's start our pray. mark, you can lead." dad said and we closed our eyes.

"father, we have gathered to share a meal in your honor. thank you for putting us together as family, and thank you for this food. bless it to our bodies. we thank you for all of the gifts you've given to those around this table. in Jesus' Name, amen."

then after that, the feast begins.

i can hear mansoo and chenle bonding together on the other side of the table. that made me really happy to see it.

"so eun, how are you? it really has been a long time and you've grown to a really beautiful young woman now." mom asked.

"i'm doing really well. sanha has been helping me through the hard times and im really grateful for having him." i said.

it's true though. sanha has been by my side ever since that day and until now. i would never ask anything more than him.

"you really are lucky to have him eun. i haven't gotten any partner yet and i'm lowkey sad about it." donghyuck said. "hyung, i thought you said you like being single." jisung said.

and they're laughing at him and donghyuck look like he's ready to throw some rounds with jisung. i look over at jaemin who stayed silent and hasn't said any word to me.

so i decided to start a conversation first.

"so jaemin, how are you with soojung?" i asked full with curiosity.

the whole table just turned silent after i asked that. and i can feel all eyes staring at me. i got panicked.

"is there something wrong?"

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a/n

hey you guys! it's been awhile hasn't it? i missed wattpad so much wow. im really sorry for neglecting this account for a long time. i just think that i needed a time off since i'm really busy with school and stuff.

how are you guys? good?