We are at a standoff
Both too proud
To apologize
To say anything really
Our pride will end us
In the end
If we could just speak freely
No longer fighting
And without the blame
Maybe the flame will come back
That's what terrifies me
Being in love with you is what scares me
Not because of all the damage
But because loving you is scary
Not because of the way you make me feel
But because of the way I make you feel
Not that it matters anyway
Not anymore
You are a past love
You were probably my first love
My hands still don't get as sweaty or shaky like they did with you
My heart still doesn't skip a beat every time I get a message the way it did for you
My stomach it doesn't get those nervous butterflies that I got with you
And my lips don't quiver like they did when they were with you
The tears don't fall like they did when I was with you
My heart though it aches for you
Doesn't hurt from cruel things you say or do
My mind though damaged from all the cruelty you put it through is starting to heal
My eyes though still wet from tears
Know real love when he kisses the tears away and says it's going to be ok
When they say it takes time for the heart to heal here's what they're really trying to say
It takes time for your heart to stop yearning; I'm still yearning for you
It takes time for your mind to heal; I don't want to forget you
It takes time for the memories to fade; I don't want them to
And last it takes time for your heart to stop wanting him; I never want to stop wanting you
