Open Your Eyes|| Bajan Canadian

A Little Note

Hey guys, so, I'm not sure if you all read these or not, but this one I want some of you to read.

Now, I'm going through a rough patch in life, and I said to myself "Why do I exist? No one cares anyways if I kill myself, and no one cares if I just leave, because I mean nothing to anyone."

Then I thought of you wonderful people who read my books, vote for the crappy shit it is, and comment the greatest things. I feel like I'm liked somewhere, despite it being the Internet.

I thought the same thing today and I almost did it. I almost left everyone behind. I had the vodka and the pills, I was ready for a slow and painful death, and then I thought of a comment from earlier on.

It stated that I was not a crappy writer and she thought she was a bad writer too, until her teacher saw some of her work and loved it. I love seeing you all get praised for your work and be happy about it, and to be truthful, everyone says I deserve a bit of happiness in my life too, and I reply with "I already have some."

I'm referring to all of you. Everyone who read my book, voted for my book, commented on my book, and stuck with me till the end. Those are the people I want to thank today.

You guys are my inspiration to keep going and to never give up, because you all hit a rough patch in life, but when you pull through into the good, you stay there and say "Yo, I overcame that shit, and here I am. I'm still here and y'all motherfuckers need Jesus."

Okay, maybe don't say that. But be proud of what you all have accomplished, and not what you see ahead and dread. The only thing I am dreading right now is my first round of paintball tomorrow.

And when you say "I haven't accomplished anything", you made it this far, right? Your still here to say that. So stop saying it and start to think of all those good things in life.

Start to think like your five again, and you don't give a fuck what other people think, because your you, and if you try to change yourself, you lose yourself all together, and I don't wanna see you all lose anything.

But, my point is, stay happy and free like the kid you once were, because I you live in sadness, you lose your happiness.

So, I'm sorry for depressing you all, but I wanted to get that out there because more people have asked why I was in therapy, the hospital, rehab, the counsellor.

That's why. Anyways, if any of you ever feel like that, please don't be afraid to PM me and ask for advice, or if you just wanna talk about anything.

I love you all and please, don't let tonight be the end of a beautiful person, I don't wanna see you go.

-Leah xx <3