Austin
I would have to say this has been a rough 4 months for me. I have still been chasing after Jacey. It seems like all my efforts have failed me. Since the concert 4 months ago I haven't talked to Jacey. I guess it is more like Jacey hasn't talked to me. Believe me, I have tried to talk to her. Every time I try I fail she walks away from me like I am invisible. I guess we should watch what we wish for. I always wanted to feel normal. I wanted to feel infamous. Now that I have someone treating me like I am not even here I regret ever saying that. I guess what I should wish for is for only Jacey's attention and no one else's. I could live without anyone else in this world other than My mom, Alex, Dave, and Jacey. I just wish I knew what I could do to actually have a conversation with her again. I miss hearing her voice. She doesn't have the same accent that everyone around here has because she isn't from here. It makes her unique. The closest I have got to having a conversation with her since the concert was through Kara. During weight class one day I stopped her and talked to her I asked her about Jacey. She told me that Jacey didn't talk to her much about me. She said that I wasn't a main topic in Jacey's mind. She said that the only thing she remembers that Jacey said about me was awhile back Jacey thought I was attractive but she didn't want to be like every other girl at this school. I wish I could have told her she wasn't like every girl at this school. She is like no other girl I have every met in my life. She is completely different from any other girl in this world. She is my "It" girl. Thinking about how I have met my soul mate, and I don't even get to start my life with her makes me want to break down and cry. I actually have found myself alone it my room staring off into space thinking about Jacey and just crying about her. It is at the point where my mom has noticed it. She is constantly asking me if I am okay now. I think she realized it one day when I was recording. She noticed I wasn't really on my game. She came in and talked to me. She said, "Austin, what is wrong with you?" All I thought to say was, " I don't know mom, I just don't feel good today." She replied with, " That would be a good excuse if it wasn't for you have been like this not only the past couple days but for about a month. I have noticed that you have been moping around the house recently. Mostly I have noticed that during recording sessions you have been out of it. Now tell me what is wrong." I didn't want to tell my mom. Seriously that is one of the most embarrassing things to ever have to do. Talk to your mom about girls. I finally convinced her that I was okay. I don't think she believed me but I started singing as if Jacey was right in front of me and I was singing to her. That made things way smoother.
Jacey
It's been 4 months since the concert. 4 months since I decided that Austin wasn't who I persuaded myself he was. I was really disappointed in myself then. Since then I have moved on. I am just happy that it is Christmas break. I am half way through my Senior year. Soon I will be off at college and things will either be the same or completely different. I guess the worse part about these four months is that my parents got a divorce. My dad has a job here and decided he was staying here. My mom wanted to go back home where her family was. Neither one of them wanted to give up on what they would be missing out on. So they decided that being together wasn't the right thing to do. Personally I would never get a divorce over that little problem. I would be the bigger person and suck it up. I guess my parents don't really see it that way. My parents gave me a choose, I could either stay here in Florida with my dad or move back home to Alabama with my mom. I bet you could guess where I decided to go. Yes, i am going back to Alabama where I belong. I am not made to be living in glamorous Miami, Florida. Miami isn't really my lifestyle. The beach is nice but I would rather be around creeks. By time Christmas break is over I will be back in Alabama the place I should be at anyways.
Austin
~First Week Back to School~
We have been back in school for a week. Not once have I seen Jacey. I know she doesn't like me. But on a normal day, I see her at least once. Plus we have had weight class everyday and she wasn't been there a single day. The days we have homeroom she hasn't been there either. I hope she is okay. I wish I had some sort of way to make sure she was.
~That Weekend~
I had asked Kara where Jacey was. She said she didn't know, the last time she saw her was before Christmas break. I then asked her if she knew Jacey's address and she said yea and gave it to me. I went over to her house earlier today. Once I got there, I knocked on her door. Her dad answered it. I told him I was a friend of Jacey, and I was wondering if she was okay. He told me I most not be a very good friend of hers if she didn't tell me that she was moving back to Alabama. I was in shock at first and didn't really realize what he had said. I asked him again where she was and he said, she had moved back to Alabama. I heard that one loud and clear. In that moment I was heart broken because this girl who was the one for me. Was here one minute and gone the next. I knew I would never see her again.
