Austin.
How is it possible to see someone you've never met, and know they are something special? How is it possible to know nothing about someone, but feel as if you have known them all your life? How is it possible to go from thinking everyone is the same, to this person is someone completely different from any other person in this world? How can you feel this way about someone, and not even know their name? Those are the questions that Alex keeps asking me. Like bro chill I'm not saying I am in love with this girl, I am just saying she has me feeling some type of way. And I never said she was different. Lets face it if she would have actually looked at me she would have probably hugged me just like all the other girls did when I walked into the doors. This is stupid anyways. Love at first sight doesn't happen, it's make believe, you can't see someone someday and just say "I am going to make that girl my wife someday" that just doesn't happen. You know what is weird? I never saw that girl for the rest of the day, not once. Then again that school is huge.
Jacey.
I was so embarrassed that I went straight to the bathroom, and I never left. I couldn't leave. I couldn't deal with the laughter and the jokes that would be said. It's not like anyone would know I was missing, no one even knows who I am. I could just be the new girl that started school on the second day of school instead of the first. That seemed reasonable enough to me. So I just sat there, in the stall, trying to think of anything other than what had just occurred. Sitting here now I don't understand why I got so embarrassed. At my old school I would of jumped up and laughed it off with them and given the other person a full apology. I don't know why I was trying to be someone different than I normally am. I came to this school hoping people would accept me for me, and I wasn't even being the real Jacey.
Austin.
This girl, the one I ran into at school, has my mind going crazy. I wouldn't say I am going crazy over her. She just has my feelings going crazy. Sitting thinking about the way she made me feel makes me think about what exactly I want in a girl. Thinking about it now, I have realized that the girls I dated before never really had what I look for in a girl. I want someone that will make me laugh, that is a must. I want to be able to be spontaneous with them. It's kind of weird but I want someone kind of like myself. I want us to have common interest, or I want her to at least be willing to do things she hasn't done before, just so we can hangout. Of course I would do the same thing for her. I want someone that has a caring heart, those are the people that can make a lasting relationship. Most importantly she needs to not care that I am Austin Mahone, the up and rising pop singer. This seems like a huge question to ask for a girl like that, especially here in Miami, where people are all about the money and the fame. The thing is I don't want someone that wants to be in the spotlight, but my life is one big spotlight. Most would tell me my standards are to high, but that is how I feel. Plus I know that a girl like that exist, I just haven't found her yet.
Jacey.
After today I have realized that my life is going to be much more different here than it was in the past. That's because the people here are much more different than the people from my past. I guess this experience in life is going to prepare me college. That's where I wish I were now, college. Where no one knows who you were in the past, it's like starting all over again. College brings friendships that will last for a life time. Since I am not there now this last year of high school is going to help me decide the type of people that I want in my life. I have thought of the kind of person I would want the special guy in my life to be like. I would want him to lift with me because lifting!! I want him to be funny, that is a must because I love to laugh. I would want him like kids. It's not that I necessary want to have a lot of kids I just want him to be good with them. I want someone that would be willing to listen to me when I am upset and need him so I can vent. I guess I kind of want someone like me. I don't want the relationship to get boring over time. Most importantly I want him to be loyal and trustworthy. People may say that this kind of guy doesn't exist but I know he does. I haven't met many of them, but I have met one. He was my best friend back in Alabama. He always got treated badly by his girlfriends but he was my definition of the perfect guy. That is why I know there are guys out there like that. People may call me crazy, but that is how I feel. And I know that I will find another guy that fits my definition of perfect, it may not be tomorrow, or a month from now, maybe not even a year from now but I know that someday I will meet another "perfect" guy. He won't sweep me off my feet at first, but in the end I will know he is the one because he will show how much he cares for me through he persistence.
