Life Goes On

chapter 11

Amina,s POV

I can't find sleep, everyone is sleeping peacefully. I can't believe Masoud was cheating on me I thought he loved me.

I decided not to cry over him and to confront him why he did that while he proposed marriage to me, our wedding was supposed to be in 1 week.

All my families are happy for me, my aunties and uncles will be coming for my wedding but now I don't understand what to do. I couldn't sleep so I thought to pray tahajjud and ask Allah for a way only he can give me patience to deal with Masoud.

I woke up silently and went to the bathroom, I didn't want to wake anyone. I came out from the bathroom and went to my room to pray to Allah to ask him for a way and I decided to pray salatul istikhara (A prayer asking Allah for guidance) again.

I finished praying I decided to recite supplication, I asked Allah to guide me and show me the right path I was crying to my lord. It was almost fajri time,I decided to read a few verses of Qur'an.

(حَافِظُوا عَلَى الصَّلَوَاتِ وَالصَّلَاةِ الْوُسْطَىٰ وَقُومُوا لِلَّهِ قَانِتِينَ)
[Surat Al-Baqarah 238]

(Abdul Haleem)
Take care to do your prayers, praying in the best way, and stand before God in devotion.

-Sura Al-Baqarah, Ayah 238.

I finished reading this verse of the Qur'an and heard the Adhan (call to prayer) for Fajr. I decided to put the Qur'an away and started praying my prayer after I finished praying I made more supplication, for Allah to guide me.

I then went to Razina's room to wake the girls for prayer. "Girls wake up its time for prayers." They were all groaning, but Fatima woke up first followed by the rest, I went back to my room to finish reading Qur'an I decided to talk to Masoud later to ask him why he did that I won't show him that am sad for him.

I finished Qur'an and I decided to go to the kitchen to help my mom Cook breakfast I know that now she is in the kitchen.

"Salaam aleikum Mama, how you today, how was your night." I tried to smile in front of my mom so as not to show her that am sad. Mom was making some fried potatoes,samosa, for starters and flat bread with cooked beans, for the main meal,I helped her with all the food, I think the girls went back to sleep after praying.

Its now 7:00am and the breakfast is ready, my dad and brother will be down soon to eat breakfast and go to work. And just on cue my father came down, followed by Ali after 5 mins. I guess the girls are still sleeping.

I served food to my dad and brother and mom decided to eat with them. Later my dad and brother left for work, and my mom went to her room to rest a bit until time to make lunch.

"Well Amina am going to my  room to relax a bit, wake me up around 10:am so I could prepare lunch." mom said to me. "No mom just go and relax, we will cook lunch today." I said to her.

She left the room I took the dishes back to the kitchen and cleaned it.
I sat down in the leaving room I decided to talk to Masoud, I called him and after two rings he answered. "Hello, how are you?" I asked him "Hello, am good,and how you?" He asked back, "well am good,,,,,,,,, I need to talk to you, are you free, today?" I asked him, "yes am free, is everything okay?" He asked back, "Nah we will talk later,,,, see ya."

I cut the call not waiting for him to answer back I felt sad and almost cried, I decided to wake the girls. "Hey girls wake up its almost ,8:30 am now."

I woke them up, and gradually they all woke up and made themselves ready I went to the kitchen and made their food ready.

"Salaam aleikum, how you Amina?" Asked Fatima as she came in the kitchen, "waaleykum salaam, alhamdulillah am okay, how was your sleep?" I sounded normal I didn't want my friends to feel sad for me.

"It was okay, so did you talk to Masoud?" Fatima asked.  "Yes I asked him to meet me, so he will be here in some time." I said back and she just nodded and helped me put the food on the table, soon the rest came down and we all sat down to eat.

We ate silently, no one talked,after finishing eating I went to my room, and left the girls after giving them instructions to cook lunch and clean the kitchen.

I changed my clothes and wore a beautiful long sleeve dress and wrapped my hijab on my head properly, and waited for Masoud he will be here soon. I messaged him to come straight in my room.

After sitting 2 minutes I heard a knock on my door I stood up and opened the door to reveal Masoud. "Salaam aleikum, how you Amina?" He asked happily,
"Wsalaam am okay." I motioned him to sit on the bed I left the door open, coz he is not my mahram yet, I sat on the coach beside him.

"So what's wrong you sounded urgent on the phone is everything okay?" He asked me, well he has the guts to look happy, I said to my self. I took my phone and showed him the video,he looked shocked.

"So answer what is this? I loved you I trusted you and that's what you do behind me, we aren't even married yet and you walking with  another girl already " I said to him I was about to cry but I stopped myself I have to look strong he shouldn't see me shuttered, I said to myself.

"Well since you have seen the video let me confirm it to you. I don't love you. My parents are forcing me to marry you because, they don't want to ruin their friendship with your parents. I love that girl in the video her name is Nora. I was just a best friend to you but you told your parents I loved you when I didnt. So now its up to you whether you still want to go ahead with the wedding or not?"

As he said all that I felt tears starting to come out from my eyes. I couldn't say anything back to him I held my head in my hands. "Just leave and never show me your face again." I said to him calmly.

Once he left the room I locked the door and started crying. I don't know how I fell asleep but someone knocking on the door woke me up.