Bad Boy Saved Me From Suicide

I want to protect you

^^^^^^^^^The song Emma used to listen to after her dad left. Its good but sad^^^^^^^

   Shit. That's all I could think. He heard. He saw. I don't  know how to lie around this. He won't care anyway if I do tell him. It's Andy fucking Black, or course he wont. 

   "What are you talking about, my mom was just mad at me and I tripped." I tried my best to make it sound convincing. I could tell he wasn't buying it. I'm fucked. Royally.

   "I know that's not what happened, just talk to me princess please."  I could see a flash of hurt in his eyes. 

   "Its more complicated than you think. I cant tell you. I'm sorry." I looked at my feet.

   "You can trust me, and if you wont tell me I'll found out myself. I want to protect you, but I cant do that if I don't know whats going on." He said.

   "Why do you even care? No one ever has, what makes me think I can trust you if you've never cared?" I don't know why I was snapping at him, but I was. I had so much angry balled up inside me, it all just started to come out. 

   "I've always cared, you just never knew. I'm not gonna lie, I've always had a thing for you, I just never had the balls to tell you or even talk to you. I'm trying to change that. I want you to be safe. I want to protect you!"  He said. Damn. I'm trying to let all of this process. He's always had a thing for me? I guess someone did care. Now I feel like shit for taking it out on him.

   "I'm sorry. I didn't know. I just have all this anger balled up inside me and it came out on you. I'm sorry." I told him. I bowed my head looking at the floor feeling really bad. He put his fingers under my chin and lifted my head up to look him in his eyes.

   "Don't be. All that anger is balled up because you don't talk about your problems. Keeping them inside is going to drive you crazy, and this will happen more often. I understand you not wanting to open up. It's new to you, but whenever you're ready to talk, just know I'm here princess." He kissed my forehead and walked to the window. He looked back, winked at me, then smirked. After, he was gone. I just stood there, still shocked with that had just happened. I decided to put some music on and lay down.

   Daddy's Little Girl by Frankie J came on and it brought me back to the day he left.

^^^^^^^^^Flashback^^^^^^

   "Daddy, you're home!" 7 year old me yelled as I jumped on his back.

    "Well hey there princess! How was school?" He asked as he grabbed me of his back and held me in his arms.

    "Some of the other kids made fun of me." I said sadly.

    "Well princess, dont listen to them, you are beautiful, smart, and kind. They wish they were you, thats why they do it. Now how about we go find mommy and Sydney and go out for dinner. How does that sound?" He asked.

   "Yayyyyy!!! Come on daddy, lets go find them im hungry." I giggled while pulling his arm to go find them. We went upstairs to mom and dads room to find mommy with another man. My dad lost it.

   "Again!! Really?! You said you were done with this shit!! Hell, Sydney isnt even mine, she's some random guys!! Yet who treats her like a daughter?! Not him!! Im done with this shit!! Im leaving for good this time!! Fuck you and your little hoey ass self!!" He yelled as he started to pack his stuff into his suitcase. I started crying and hid under a table. As he was getting ready to leave, he saw me and picked me up. 

   "Im sorry it has to be this way princess. I will come back for you, I promise." He kissed my forehead, and with that he was gone. Little did I know I'd probably never see him again.

^^^^^^^^Flashback over^^^^^^

I didnt realize i was crying but when I did, I let it all out, balling my eyes out. My dad was my best friend. I was his princess, and yet he's gone. And now I get abused because I'm a constant reminder of him. Just a mistake. Next thing you know, I feel 2 strong arms pick me up. Andy picked me up, and put me on his lap. I hid my face in his shoulder, still crying.

   "Let it all out princess." He said as he rubbed me back. As soon as I calmed down, I told him everything. From why my dad left, to how life is. Being abused and not being able to eat as well as bullied. The whole time, he just held onto me, tighter and tighter.

   "That will never happen again, not on my watch." He's the first person I've ever trusted after my dad left, other than Ryoko, but shes gone now. 

   "How are you going to protect me?" I asked.

   "You'll see princess, you'll see" he told me with a smirk.

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