Bad Boy Saved Me From Suicide

Let's Move Past This

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His voice highkey gets me. His cover is better than the actual song in my opinion. Anyways sorry its been a while. Hope you enjoy. Also I'm going to start to incorporate some Italian into my writing, but I'll always translate it.

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After I said what I needed, I slowly got up, wiping my tears and giving her a kiss on the forehead. But as I began to walk away, I felt a tug at the hem of my shirt. I froze and began to slowly turn, to face my princesa, with here eyes beginning to slowly open up.

"Dad..." she said so softly, almost to the point of being inaudible, "you're here..."

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   Emma POV

       Darkness. It consumes you. As much as you try to push it away and go to the light, darkness consumes the light. At least that's what it felt like until he started talking to me. I heard everyone but when he started talking it brought me back. Showed me the light. 

      "Principessa, I'm here. I know I'm here way too late. And I will never forgive myself for that, so I don't blame you if you never do either. But I do want you to know that I'm here to stay, I wasn't there when you needed me most because I was too busy feeling sorry for myself. And that wasn't fair to you. You never had a steady father figure to teach you things and be there for you. To show you how a man should treat you. Instead, I did the exact opposite. I left you alone with your witch of a mother. And she hurt you, and I didn't save you. I couldn't be there when you needed me and I'm so sorry principessa. I missed all the important birthdays, all those years, all that time we can never get back. But sweetie, I love you more than anything in the whole world. You were my principessa, my only neonata (baby girl) and I fucked up bad. But I'm not leaving you, not now. Not ever. But please come back to us. I will do whatever it takes."  I could feel his warm tears drop onto my hand. I'd never be able to fully forgive him for leaving me, but I could try just like he is. 

     And that's when I saw it. I saw the light and knew this was my chance. I walked towards it and I felt my eyes slowly coming open, fighting what felt like glue holding them shut. My eyes slightly open, I see my dad start to get up to leave, but I grab the hem of shirt to stop him. I can see him freeze, and slowly turn to face me, his eyes still glassy. "Dad..." I said in a hushed tone im not even sure if he heard me, "You're here..."

    "Yes neonata, I'm here to stay. I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused to you my Principessa." He says as he comes back to my side, taking my small hand into his. I didn't realize I was crying until I felt his thumb wipe my tears. "Le principesse non dovrebbero piangere," (princesses shouldn't cry). I missed speaking Italian with my father. Growing up, we'd always speak Italian to each other as well as Eth. It was our thing, and I've always held onto it.

    "Mi sei mancato, papa," (I've missed you dad). We both smile as we speak his native language and the language I was raised speaking. It makes me feel like I'm no longer alone. I turn to the door as I hear it creak open, and in steps Eth. I can see his eyes start to fill up as he see's me awake. I open my arms, hinting at my twin to come hug me. He runs over and embraces me gladly, crying into my neck as tears start to drop from my eyes.

    "Sono stato così preoccupato per te piccolo," (I've been so worried about you little one), Eth said as he stroked my hair.

     "Sono qui fratello, sono qui," (I'm here brother, I'm here). My dad joins in our hug, and I feel whole again. I hear someone let out a cough and look to see Andy standing at the door awkwardly. I give a slight smile as I see him, immediately missing his touch. He begins to walk toward my bed as Eth and my dad let go of me. He stops right at the side of my bed and brings his hand up to my face, placing it on my cheek as he rests his forehead against mine. His thumb rubs small circles over my cheek and I feel this warmth, I feel safe and content. 

    "I didn't know you spoke Italian," he said with a slight smile. I give a small giggle. "There's that laugh, that smile I've missed so much." I couldn't help but turn pink as he said this, trying to hide my face, but his hands held it firm in place as he kisses my cheeks, then my nose, to my forehead as I sigh in content. 

    "Yeah I speak fluent Italian, he raised me speaking his language. But I haven't spoken since he's left." He nods understandingly. I pat the side of the bed next to me and scoot to make room, hinting for him to lay with me. He let out a slight laugh as he climbed in next to me very careful not to hurt me. 

       "I missed you. I was so scared I was going to lose you... forever." He said the last part hushed, as if it was some nightmare that had been haunting his dreams. I felt guilt wash over me immediately, realizing what I put all of them through. I felt as his arm snaked its way around my waist as he pulled me into his chest. "Don't feel guilty, you were going through hell. I'm just sorry i couldn't get to you sooner... Couldn't save you." He said ashamed of himself, and it broke my heart. 

      "No. Don't say that il mio amore (my love). Don't you dare blame yourself for this. This was me trying to escape my pain and I was being selfish. At the time I did what I felt was right. And for that I'm deeply sorry. I put you guys through a lot.  If it's anyone's fault it's mine." I said as I wiped a tear from his cheek. 

       "Let's move past this ok? We just need to move forward now. You're not going back to that house. You're staying with me, I don't want to lose you... Not now, not ever..." It wasn't until that moment that I completely realized what would've happened if I was truly gone. I realized who I would've left behind as I look to the door and see everyone in the waiting room, some of them asleep, some relieved faces. All these people whom I love with everything I have. My family. I looked into his eyes and leaned my forehead against his, hands around his neck.

     "Ti amo con tutto ciò che ho (I love you with everything that I have.)" And with that I kissed him like my life depended on it.

     "I'm not 100% sure what that means but with the kiss, I'm going to say I love you princess." I gave a slight giggle at what he said and sighed in content as I lay into his chest, inhaling his scent that I've missed oh so much. 

    Seconds later everyone came in the room as I hear pictures being taken as well as plenty of "awww's" followed with the boys making some weird teasing man sounds. I look around the room as I take in the presence of everyone, and give the biggest smile, as I feel happy and content.

     "I love you guys," I say as they all come running in for a group hug, which turned into a sort of dog pile as we all let out free spirited laughs. Now this, I can get used to.

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Ok so im ngl writing this one was a little harder, and I took A LOT more time to write it than i thought i would. And yes, this kinda sounds like an end, but I promise its not, and I promise I'll be updating more often. Thank you guys for reading and I rlly hope you guys are enjoying reading this as much as I am writing it. 

And quick side not, I hit 5.4K!!!!!!!!! Thank you all so much words cannot describe how thankful I am for this.