I'm Trying

Chapter 2

~2 years later~

"You need to leave there's not enough room with Cora being back." Derek yelled.
It's been 2 years and a lot has happened. I got kicked out and moved in with Derek we were "falling in love" then he decides to kick me out.
"Did I do something wrong?" I said with tears coming down my face.
"I just need you to leave." He said once again.
"Where am I supposed to go?" I yelled back.
"GO!" He screamed throwing his glass cup at me and hitting the wall behind me making it shatter and hit me in the face.
"My dad did that to me all the time and you know that. You doing that doesn't do anything it makes you the bad guy. So don't ask me for help anymore. I'm done." I sob back and grab my stuff and leave slamming the door on the way out. I jump into my Jeep and take off to who knows where.
It's been 3 hours and I find myself in front of Stiles house. I jump out and walk up to the door and knock. His dad answers and seeing me crying. He pulls me into a hug and drags me inside.
"What happened? Is everything alright" He said holding me tight.
" Derek kicked me out and I don't know why," I sob even more.
"You can stay here," He said smiling
"Are you sure? I don't think Stiles would like that?" I said wiping my tears.
"I pay the bills, I make the choices around here and I choose for you to stay here with us." He smiles. I hug him again.

Ever since that day I walked out of the school and saw Derek, everything changed. We used to be best friends in middle school and he was a couple years older. Then I moved to New York with my parents, I hated it there. Derek and I talked every day and then one day we just stopped. Almost 10 years later I come back and he has grown into a very very handsome man. When we reunited we instantly clicked and starting dating after a couple weeks. Everything was perfect, he was perfect. After almost a year, we had sex for the first time and that's when he bit me and turned me into a werewolf, and also marked me. Things were still perfect. He was still so perfect. We were the power couple, we were the Alphas. They would call me the pack mom, I was always there for everyone.
          Soon my mom died from a kanima attack.  It was just a normal day and out of nowhere I got a call from Scott saying he needed me because he was having problems with Allison. My dad told us to stay together because of the attacks in the neighborhood. My mom told me to go, I should have stayed. So I left to Scott's, as I was walking inside I heard a scream and it changed my life forever. I raced home with Scott and everyone else behind me. I ran inside to see my moms lifeless body just laying there, there was blood everywhere. I rush to her side, she was still alive.
"Mom everything is gonna be okay, the ambulance is coming and so is dad. Your gonna be fine," I said crying and soon black started going through my veins, I was trying to take her pain but it wasn't working. "Mama why isn't it working? Why can't I take your pain?" I said screaming.
"That's because it doesn't hurt, it's my time now. I'm not in pain, I'm in my daughters arms. I love you so much babygirl, never forget that. Take care of the pack, and your father. I'm so sorry that I had to go so soon. Your gonna be a wonderful leader, and soon you'll be the best mother. Your the best thing that has ever happened to me and your father," she said with tears crushing down her face. She takes something from her pocket and hands it to me. A necklace, it was my grandmas. She gave it to my mother the day she died.
"No mama, I can't take it. Your gonna make it, I'm so sorry for leaving you here by yourself. Please forgive me," I said with tears still running down my face.
"You are my flesh and blood, you will never go unforgiven by me, I love you so much baby. You and your father," she said and soon she started dosing off.
"No mama, stay awake, please stay awake. Don't go mommy please. Don't leave me here," I screamed and tried to wake her up. The look in her eyes, that sparkle that was always there, it was gone. Just like that she was gone.
Everything changed after that. My father was heart broken and stayed locked away, drinking. I was busy taking care of my pack when I'm the one that was falling apart. I felt empty and lost and didn't know what to do. I tried to hurt myself but it just heals. I then realized that every broken bone, every scratch, every cut can be healed after awhile. Broken heart can't be healed though.  It was a physical pain in my chest like it was being ripped away from me. I didn't know what I would do next. Everyone kept saying sorry. That's all they said was sorry and I was getting tired of it.
"Shut up, stop saying sorry. Sorry isn't going to fucking bring her back is it. No it's not so just shut up," I screamed at the pack. They have been up my ass saying sorry and making me feel weak.
I changed after that, I wasn't myself and everyone knew and so did I. My dad starting drinking a lot and he would come home late. After a month he started getting angry at me and started hitting me and kicking me. He would throw glass cups and bowls at me and hit me in the face. He did that for 3 months then I moved in with Derek. We were in love still. He was the only thing keeping from going insane. Only thing keeping my humanity on. We were going good until we found his sister. He kicked me out and threw a vase at me and it almost hit my face.
I didn't know what I did wrong and I feel so lost. He was the only thing keeping me here. Stilinski let me have the guest bedroom. I haven't came out since Derek kicked me out. It's been almost 2 weeks. I was looking at my phone just waiting for Derek to text, when someone knocked. They came in and it was Scott.
"Are you coming to the pack meeting today?" He asked. I scoffed. I give him a look like are you retarded or something. He took the hint and walked out. I was so lost, I just wanted to disappear forever. I went into the bathroom and got in the shower. I washed my hair and just sat down with my knees to my chest, letting the water fall on me. I was so angry at him and myself. Angry at him for not giving me an explanation.  Angry at myself for falling so hard for a man who doesn't feel the same. His heartbeat didn't skip once when he told me to leave. He didn't love me. I was just a toy to him.
I started crying, crying where my head started pounding. I got angry and I started to shift. I looked to my left and saw a knife. I grabbed it and cut very deep against my wrist, but it healed. God I wish it would heal. I kept cutting and cutting, it just kept healing. I got out and got dressed. Something snapped inside me and I just kept getting angrier and angrier. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were black. I just started laughing.
"I'll get you back for this, Derek," I laughed and jumped out the window.

~ Scott ~

I was mad. Ever since we found Cora and Derek kicked Hope out, she is lost. She doesn't come out of the room and she is depressed. So I was pissed and ran to Derek's. When I got there I slammed the door open.
"DEREK!" I roared. Derek and everyone else turned around and saw that I was transformed. They looked shocked and scared but Derek didn't. "I'm gonna fucking rip you apart!" I roar again and red flashed in my eyes. I smirked and he looked scared. I ran at him tackling him through the window and started punching and scratching. I couldn't stop, I was angry. He just laid there and did nothing. I was about to do it again when someone caught my arm. I looked up and saw Hope. There was something different about her.
I stood up and calmed down. I looked at Derek and there was blood everywhere. He was still alive though. I saw Hope turn around and walk away I thought a glance at her almost dead ex boyfriend. When she got to the door, Derek was already standing. She turned around and smirked.
"Don't worry, I'm just getting started," she laughed and her eyes turned completely black and she turned into a black huge wolf and ran off. I looked around the room and everyone was freaking out.
"This is your fault," I said to Derek. He looked down in disappointment in himself. "What if she decides to start working with Ducalian or better yet Peter," I said again.
"She wouldn't do that," Derek scoffed. I gave him the look and he panicked. He stood up and went to his room.

Hey guys it's me. I have been gone for a while but I'm back. Did you guys miss me? I'm not gonna be updating a lot but I still will. So vote and comment what I should write. And also please go follow me