The Little Book Of Wonders

Conflicted Youngling

The touch of

warmth 

protection

happiness

of someone 

you love

is something I desperately want...

but I want the feeling solitary confinement to stay 

I don't want to hurt anyone

I'm extremely messy in my mind

I've got a bunch of flaws 

An abundance I'd rather say

I don't follow society's foot steps 

I don't like drinking 

I don't like partying

nor dancing 

I don't like sex before marriage 

My ideals against the world are pretty venomous to some 

and rather be hateful and hold grudges against me 

but I really don't care about those people who say "I'm too much"

I just want some who will like me for me 

Just have the right intentions

Like create a life together 

and not just make love 

That's only part of it 

Love is about being there for someone for who will do anything for your happiness

Someone who will help you grow as a human being 

See the good in the bad 

Help you pick yourself up when you can't 

Cheer you on at the good times

Creating the new generations of life

All of this until death will do my partner and I apart.

Unfortunately, I'm too young to talk about this but here I am 

I'm doing as I sit down on computer 

However, I get scared because of the way I am

I'm explosive 

erratic 

stubborn 

aggressive 

naive

hard-headed

and anything I touch I destroy

literally

These are qualities I possess 

sadly

but I'm not 

abusive 

controlling 

possessive 

vulgar 

nor mean

I am 

understanding

tolerant 

loving 

funny 

sarcastic 

optimistic at times

helpful 

and quite holy

Yeah..that's me conflicted like any 17 year old would be- Ea 5/5/18 4:33pm