Teenage life
My mind is heavy
It has been for months now.
I'm overwhelmed
by the things in life.
Other people might make me laugh
But it's all just a show.
Tv shows may make me believe in love
But the want makes me hurt.
No one knows who I truly am
I don't think I even do.
It's hard not knowing
Not being who I want.
I'm scared to be fully me
Most teenagers are.
My Insecurities whisper in my ears
And insults play in my mind.
The only world I really want to live in only exists on paper.
I make things in my mind,
Fantasize what it would be like
To be like her.
Blond hair
blue eyes
skinny waist
slim thighs.
But it isn't me
The realization slightly hurts.
Is it better to face reality
Than live behind a closed door?
I'm not sure.
But I'm going to try to be me
To not hate what I see in the mirror
To know that I do have the strength to conquer the demons in my mind.
I just have to believe
Even though it is truly hard.
