Our Love

Chapter 2: Well then.

After the first couple days of talking to Ben I started liking him. We were just getting to know more about each other and we shared some common interests. He seemed like a nice guy and he was kind of cute. But when I talked to him I wasn't really being myself. Usually I'm really random and bubbly and excited and kind of weird. But I really wanted him to like me so I tried to be as normal as possible. It was hard for me to come up with conversations. And I was so boring. The more I was like this I noticed he seemed to show less interest in me. So I tried everything I could. I would do whatever he said, talk about whatever he wanted to talk about even if I really didn't want too.

He never texted me first. I remember one day I texted him multiple times to see if he would respond because I was so desperate to talk to him. I don't know what made me want to talk to him so badly. He was kind of a dick to me. He made me feel stupid some times and just I don't know. And I remember him asking me on the 26th the night before my birthday he asked me if I liked him and I said yes, then he said on a scale from 1-10 how much. And I replied with 7. Then he just said "oh ok." Then I asked him if he like me and he said something along the lines of yeah you're a great girl don't get me wrong but we would want two different things from each other so I don't see it working. That crushed me, but I rolled it off like it was nothing and that I wasn't effected by it. He did say he liked me but not as much.

The night before my birthday right at midnight I was still talking to him and he told me happy birthday and said he'd probably flirt a lot with me all day. Which turned out to be a lie. He still was being kind of rude and would always be like" oh want me to go. " which I hated. When all of my friends came over on my birthday I told them about Ben and what not. And one of them got the idea that he should drive all the way to my house and sneak him in. And so we told him about it and he said yeah but you have to send me a picture to motivate me to come. So I did. But it wasn't a really bad picture. And after I sent it he then replied with when do you want me to leave. So I told him to leave around 2 or 3. After that he never answered. I was waiting for him to answer my text. I wants him to come over. I wanted to see him. I thought that if he were to come see me maybe he'd like me more.

I don't remember if he apologized or not but his excuse was he fell asleep. I was so upset by it but, again I acted like I didn't care and that it wasn't a big deal. After all that happened I texted Megan and told her about it and she was acting strange. She then told me how Ben told her he liked I her and asked her to go to the movies. This made me really upset so I asked him about it and he was like yeah but as friends. But I didn't believe it. I was getting really upset by everything. I made plans to spend the night at Megan's house.

So when I got to Megan's we were both texting him. And I was getting jealous. I just wanted him to like me more. I wanted him to only be texting me. Of course I didn't say anything, I just went along with it. Later that night I was also texting my best friend Hannah and she sent me a picture of Channing Tatum and I was like " ooooh dat V line doe " well I thought I sent it to her. No I sent that message to Ben. Ben got mad and thought I was talking to another guy and I told him it was just sent to the wrong person and what it was about but he was like I'm tired I'm just going to go. So I told Megan and she told him to believe me and he eventually did. But then she asked if he would still talk to me. She also was telling him how he should like me and give us a chance nut he replied with " I don't really feel like talking to her right now, and I don't want to be in any relationship unless I care about the person and I like you more than her." Megan read the message looked at me and didn't want to show me. But I said whatever it is, it's okay. So I read it and my heart shattered. He didn't care about me at all. All he wanted was pictures and to talk dirty. I played it off and said it was no big deal but I cried.

He liked Megan, he didn't like me. He wanted her, not me. All I knew was it wasn't me and It kind of wanted it to be. I don't know why I liked him so much I just did and he couldn't care less about me. It hurt. It hurt a lot. After this Ben wouldn't talk to me for days and I would pray that he would answer me. And when he did answer he would act like it never happened.

I knew he likes to work out. He told me he lifted a lot. He also told me about his back problems. One day Megan told me that his back gave out and he dropped the weights on his head while lifting and passed out and had a concussion. I was sad that he didn't tell me About it so I went ahead and said I heard about what happened and that I hope he feels better but he said thanks and that he couldn't talk it hurt to do more than one thing. But he was still texting Megan. She told me he couldn't text more than one person, that it was too tough for him. I was so jealous that he was talking to her not me.

After that I kind of wanted to get over him but at the same time I didn't. After a week Megan was telling me how he was starting to ignore her too. And that they argued about how they weren't compatible for each other. She didn't want to be with him because he lived in another town and other reasons but I guess he thought they should be together or something. I think Megan liked him a lot but for some reason she just didn't want to go out with him.

While all this was going on with Ben things at my house were getting a little crazy. My mom ended up in the hospital because she was having problems with her appendix and needed to have surgery and get it removed. Then my moms boyfriend had a problem with his finger and needed surgery on that too. So the only two people I lived with were both at the hospital. So I wasn't sure how I was going to get to school or anything. But my grandma ended up staying with me. So during this I was talking to Megan and telling her everything that was going on and I think she told Ben because he texted me first.

He started talking to me as a casual conversation then asked me about what happened and what's going on. I don't think he actually cared, I think he was just curious. But he said he was sorry for what was going on and wished me the best.

My mom was in the hospital for about 3 more days. But my moms boyfriend got out the next day, everything was fine for him so he was good to go. I was talking to Megan and she told me how Ben was being really mean to her and like stopped liking her and was being a dick. She told me he never answered her but once she used her textnow number that he didn't know he answered. So he basically only answered because he didn't know who it was. So then I got the idea to text him from a text now number. But I only wanted to mess with him. I thought that I should mess with him because he hurt Megan. I told Megan that I was going to text him and make a fake person and just mess with him.

So I made the account. I texted him "Haaaaiiiii" and he replied with "who is this?" I told him that if was for me to know and him to find out.