Our Love

Chapter 3: Liz was born

Ben asked me where I was from and I told him the town where my dad lives so he wouldn't think it was me. Then he asked for my age and grade so I said I was 15 and a freshmen. When I'm actually 14 and an 8th grader at the time. He asked what school I went too and I told him I went to this private catholic school that's in the town my dad lives in. He knew what school it was because it's about a half hour away from him. He kept asking for my name so I panicked and asked Megan for a name and she suggested Liz so I told him it was Liz. Which I hated the name but I couldn't think of anything else. He asked me how I got his number so I said I got it from Paige, I know her from volleyball. I don't even play volleyball but he believed it. And that's how Liz was created. She was created January 11th. Ben seemed intrigued by Liz. At first I was kind of being creepy but I was being my crazy weird out going self this time. And Ben seemed to kind of like it.

So the next day I woke up and Ben had texted me good morning. Which was weird because he never texted anyone first. He never even texted Megan first. I waited until I got out of school to text him though. I continued to talk to him and get to know him. He was asking questions about me what I like to do and just everything so he could really know me. Now I didn't want to lie so I was completely honest with him about everything. And I was acting my normal self. Most of my answers were the same as before so I confused as to why he didn't realize it was me. Later on as we were talking I asked why he didn't like Paige (the real me) and he said it was because I was boring. I have never once been told I was boring person. So I was kind of offended by that statement. But the thing is, I was never my true self with him when I talked to him as my actual self.

While we were texting I accidentally called him. Right after I said "sorry that was an accident" and he was like "it's alright" but then I replied with "You should've answered though" and he said "Oh why?" And I said "Bc I like to talk otp" then he said " oh okay:)" so then I called him again and he answered. We started talking and I couldn't stop smiling once I heard his voice. He was so cute. And we just talked about random stuff and just asked each other questions. He told me I sound adorable and that I have the cutest giggle. And we talked for about an hour and a half and then it got pretty late so we said goodnight and got off the phone. As soon as we got off the phone he texted me saying "Goodnight Sleeptight! Text me in the morning??:)"

Ben wanted a picture of me and I didn't want to send a picture of someone else but I couldn't send him a picture of me obviously because he knew what I looked like so I said my phones broken and I use text now from my iPod. So he understood. The next couple of days we talked on the phone a lot and just got to know each other a lot. I liked this side of him. He seemed so interested in me. And he really like my awkward weirdness. And he made me feel so special. He seemed so different than when I talked to him the first time. He seemed so sweet and caring. And he really opened up to me. He told me everything.

He has a really sad story. He was abused by his father when he was younger and he has back problems that are so bad by that the time he turns 28 he is supposed to be paralyzed. He also told me about how bad his depression was and that he has attempted suicide before. He had a hard time telling me that because he didn't want me to think less of him. But I told him that things like that won't make me think any less of him and it won't change the way I feel about him.

Before all of that he told me he really liked me. And I told him that I liked him too. So we both knew that we liked each other. And I asked him if he ever wanted to be In a relationship and he said he was awful in relationships. Meaning he didn't really want to be in one. When he said that it kind of really hurt. But I thought that if eventually he liked me enough he'd want to be in one.

So about a week later I was at my friends house and I told her about everything. She didn't really care that I was lying to him but she told him that I do need to tell him and I said I would tell him some time soon. But that night when I was at her house he called me before I went to bed after my friend fell asleep because I didn't want to be rude. I remember that phone call because it was the first time he called me babe. And I loved it so much. Every time he called me babe there were so many butterflies in my tummy. I melted every time. He was so sweet to me. And he always laughed at my stupid jokes. Even though I know they weren't that funny but he pretended they were.

I also remember the next day talking about how much I love snow and he asked me why and I said because it's so pretty some times. And he said back exactly " But it's beauty can never compare to yours babe:)" I just remember not being able to stop smiling. He just made me so happy all the time. And I just always wanted to talk to him. I was getting attached fast.

A couple weeks later my mom came in my room with my report card extremely angry. I got a F in art. Now I know what you're thinking "How the hell do you fail art?" Well number 1 my teacher was a bitch and expected you to be Picasso or something. And number 2 I barely turned in anything. Oops. So my mom took my phone and my ipad. And immediately I panicked. Because I didn't know how I was going to talk to Ben. But then I remembered that I had my laptop in my closet. I quickly ran over to it and got on the text now website and texted him telling him everything that happened. So from then on I talked to him in my laptop.

So it was harder for me to talk to him. And I couldn't call him and hear his voice. And I really missed his voice.