Every time I see him there's an ache in my chest and I get weaker. Every time I'm with him my life gets shorter and the pain grows. Like a root that keeps growing and attaching to the ground.
At last fresh air, it was so suffocating in the hospital. After I did what I had to do and get what is needed I contacted my boyfriend to pick me up.
While I was waiting for him, I was still thinking if what I did was the right decision. Well as long as everyone is happy, I'm happy as well. I saw a car pull over on my spot, he opened the door for me and I got in the car.
"I didn't think you would agree to pick me up, Yesung-hyung," I said while chuckling, He only looks at me as if I was an alien and turns his focus on the road again. "Congrats on the new song of D&E by the way," he said, I blushed when I heard that. I was embarrassed, cause the lyrics of our song they say it was obvious that we're the one who wrote it. "Thanks, hyung," I said shyly.
We arrived at the dorm and there he goes running towards me and hugged me tightly.
"I'm sorry I couldn't pick you up! Shindong Hyung said we would probably go on a date if I was the who picked you up." my boyfriend Donghae said frantically, "Yeah that would probably happen, by the way, how did you convince Yesung hyung?" I asked him laughing.
He told me that it wasn't him who convinced Yesung but Shindong, He said that Yesung was a faster driver that's why Shindong convinced Yesung to pick me up. When I remembered Shindong I immediately went to him and give him the medicine he asks for, It was for a stomach ache.
I'm happy that it all went well, I sat on the couch. Donghae sat beside me and I place my head onto his shoulder and rest. Cause we'll have a concert tomorrow.
Flashback
"So I guess I'll just have surgery huh?" I muttered to myself, I felt Donghae arms pull me and felt his soft lips in mine. And he's kissing me. He's everywhere up my back and over my arms and suddenly he's kissing me harder, deeper, with a fervent urgent need I've never known before.
I was shocked, my eyes were wider than before and I kissed him back. I didn't feel the itchy sensation anymore, I feel lighter, Lighthearted. He was kissing me passionately as if he's afraid I wouldn't feel his love toward me. Our lips separated and we were panting.
"I'm sorry hyukkie, I wasn't sure of my feelings before but when I heard your song and that you'll have surgery I felt a pang in my heart. I was thinking what if you had surgery then you wouldn't look at me like before and I was frightened. Thinking that you'll lose your love for me, That I'll lose you. I'm sorry that because of me you had to experience this. I'm sorry and I love you, I love you so much that just the thought of you looking blankly at me already breaks my heart." he confessed to me, I was stunned, shock and every word that has the same meaning to it.
Donghae loves me, He loves me.
I hugged him tightly and told him that I love him too.
I heard some cheering and saw the members at the door looking at us happily.
Both of us was crying, Finally, we could be free from the chains that were holding us apart.
Finally, the Growing pain that both of us felt was gone.
After that day we wrote lyrics for another D&E song, it was titled 'Can you feel it?' the game that the song mention was the Game of Fate. It also mentioned how the fight is already over and that I'm a lucky guy to have Donghae. We were all friends from the start but I'm happy that it didn't stay there. That we're glad we can calmly enjoy a victory, The members also helped us writing, that the title 'Can you feel it?' means, Can you feel it? The Love that I feel? and the answer is Yes. The song is also for our fans a.k.a E.L.F.
And now here we are at the studio, giving our manager the lyrics and gladly he approved of it. The next day we were recording our song. It has an upbeat rhythm.
I got a feeling I got a feeling I got a feeling Alright, Can you feel it? Can you feel it? I got a feeling I got a feeling I got a feeling Yeah, Can you feel it? Can you feel it?
Yo, Everybody, stop as you are Move out of the way of these two hot guys Me? I'm a super lucky guy I'll captivate the game with just my feel Are you ready? Let's start it now You can drool but the fight is already over A perfect play with no room for questioning Born with it, winner DNA
Call them, call them, your friend, my friend, we're all friends Come here, come here, her friend, my friend, we're all friends Feel it, feel it, yo friend, your friend no my friend So giddy up, giddy up, gather around (Can you feel it? Can you feel it?)
I'll just hit it like whatever but it'll be a home run You won't believe it even when you see it, it's crazy I'll just kick it like whatever but it'll be a hat trick If I give a little strength, game set (Can you feel it? Can you feel it?)
It's not just skill, it's art, no one can come close I never miss the target, zero space I can calmly enjoy victory (That's right)
Whatever I do, I'll succeed, come at me world I have instincts, sharp senses, a man of man I'm on a different level, A to Z If I try, success 100% Talking about it would only hurt my lips What to do? The game is over
My confidence goes through the roof My condition is so nice, everyone falls back I'll do an all-kill with just a finger, a crazy presence I'll change the flow in the air (Can you feel it? Can you feel it?)
All paths and doors open up I'm going fast, limitlessly I never miss the target, zero space I can calmly enjoy victory (That's right) (Can you feel it? Can you feel it?)
Present
We're here now at our concert, as soon as I woke up they were running around when Leeteuk saw me he dragged me and to the bathroom and I took a bath.
And he we are.
With my Family.
With my Love.
And with my Ever Lasting Friends.
I took a deep breath and went to the stage, We performed Black suit our new song, This is love, Mamacita, Sorry sorry and much more. The members told us to perform you feel it?' so we did, While I was singing my part Donghae stand beside me and kissed my cheeks. I was blushing so hard I think I was redder than Rudolf's nose. The E.L.F was screaming saying they're ship has finally sailed.
"Everyone! I want to announce that HaeHyuk is official!" Donghae announced I just look at him dumbfounded, The E.L.F was even louder now. Everyone was cheering even the members. "No one can touch him without my permission, I'm talking about you guys," he said and pointed at the members.
The E.L.F squealed and all I could be standing there, He hugged me and whispered: "Guess I'm the husband and you're the wife."
I think I regretted my decision...
Just Kidding! Life's too short for regrets, So just move on and continue walking. Accept the situation you're in, You're frustrated cause the situation you're in wasn't the situation you imagined. Accept and Go with the Flow.
