Why can't i just tell him!

hey!well this is the first of my books and i dunno if i am a good writer i apologise in advance if there are any spelling mistake or punctuation as i am dispracsic well any way let me know if you like it or not or have any ideas or things i have to improve on and don't worry this isn't a love story where they just fall in love and everything is okay.....because everything will go wrong

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~Taylors POV~

well i have had the worst day i just found out my best friend harry styles is actually  going to addition for the x-factor i mean i know i was the one that filled out his form for him with out him knowing i just kind of wished i hadn't because now he will go and most likely wont be back for a while if he gets in and there is no way they are going to let him go because he is and amazing singer i remember from all the time i have been helping him with his song,the only bad thing is that i am going to miss him so much but i cant be the reason for him not pressuring his dream. have to admit i used to have the biggest crush on Mr Styles when we where a bit younger i would say when we where 14 till 5 so a year until he went out with the school slut i mean no one could really blame her the only flaw she had was her terrible personality , she was horrible to me and when her and harry went out he didn't really talk to me thank god there relationship only lasted a month or so i don't think i could have not talked to her for longer than that.

~Harrys POV~ 

i just told Taylor that i will be auditioning for the x-factor and i don't know how i can thank her i mean she is coming with me, but when i told her she looked kind of sad and happy at the same time so i don't know whats happening there anyway she is staying tonight to leave bright and early tomorrow morning.

ding dong 

HAZZA!!!!!

TAY!!! 

she put her arms out for a hug so i went for a hug and lifted her up and carried her to the couch.

so what we gunna watch first?

how about a horror then a chic flick?

Harrryyyyy you know i hate horrors and that's not fair because you love chick flicks as well as the scary thing you call movies

The only reason i like chick flicks is because every time we watch them 

Taylor looked up at me there was something in her eyes that i haven't noticed before like she was trying to tel me something but was scared to,after the movie i will find it out

~Taylors POV~ 

truth be told i was bricking it, i cant tell my best friend that is about to leave me that i could be most likely dying yes dying well you see 2 weeks ago i wasn't feeling so well and my mum said she better take me to the doctors and that's what she done.The doctor took some test and jabbed about 20 needles in my arm when the test came back 2 days ago it was positive i have terminal cancer and i have up to 2 and a half years to live,but for now i am just going to put up a brave face while harry is here and not tell him because i don't want him to stay here for me and this might be the only chance he has to go throu with his dreams and i wouldn't be able to look at him if i knew i was the one that stopped his dreams and i am going to die so then what will he do after i die?that's why i am not telling him.

so we where watching the movie  and let me tell you i was screaming most of the way through but not that loud and then harry said he was going to the toilet so i had to move because i buried my self in his chest so now my head was cuddling into a pillow,the person on the T.V was just about to open the door when harry came up behind me and screamed in my ear,i screamed for dear life my parents ended up coming down the stairs.

"Taylor what happened ?are you okay?why where you screaming?" said my mum a little to worried

i half smiled and looked at Harry and said"mum its okay,I just got a little scared at the movie,i think we are going to watch a chick flick now,sorry for worrying you"

"Taylor can we talk to you in the kitchen for a minute " now they are going to have this huge lecture about how i should tell harry because he will be there for me but i dont want him to be there for me, i want him out living his dreams not here with me and i cant stress that enough!

"okay"not like i didn't know what was coming.