'SHE's MY BOYFRIEND's SISTER ' (Gxg)

Chapter 25

It was tragic.

Nagising ako ng 2:30 ng umaga. Kahapon bago kami bumalik sa kwarto kumain muna kami.

Kinalimutan ko ang problemang pinoproblema ko. Hinayaan kong nanaminin ang mga oras na kasama ko siya. Dahil alam kong pedeng ito na ang maging huli.

I know i'll be the most coward and stupid person i'll ever know. But, i know na nasa mali ako. I know na everything i did was wrong. I should have not fall to her. The moment she came. I became ravenous with her attention. The feeling she always make me feel.. And her.

She's so different. Or maybe it's just new to me

Hindi ko maintindihan.
Bakit nalamangan niya ung mga pinararamdaman sakin ni trenton.

Bakit ako nahulog sakanya..

Maybe im just confused.

Bago ako bumangon, tinignan ko muna si coley.

So soft. So fragile. So beautiful.

Pure.

How can i leave u?
Im not sure..
If im really am gay. But im 100% sure that im inlove with you

Coley... I hate you

I hate u for stealing my heart from your brother.
I hate you for being so selfish for love.
I hate how you easily take something from me, without me getting mad.
I hate you for making me fall for you

Its all wrong. Its all forbidden

I hate it coley

I can't help but to cry. It's like yesterday we're just ate and lil sis. And now. Im fuckin inlove with you and im fuckin leaving you.

Im sorry coley

i kissed her forehead before leaving the bed.
Pagkatapos kong kunin ang nga gamet ko, i looked at her one last time.

"I love you" i whispered, as i head to the door. Nanginginig kong hinawakan ang doorknob. Mariin napapikit habang may patak ng mga luhang dumaloy sa aking pisnge.

Im not gonna look at you anymore. Im gonna silently open this and head my way out.

Tuluyan ko ng nilisan ang kwarto.

Malamig ma simoy ng hangin ang tumama sa aking balat. Kaseng lamig ng nararamdaman ko ngayon

Tumingin ako sa relo sa kaliwang kamay ko. Sakto. It's already 3:30 madilim dilim pa

Tinungu ko na ang daan papuntang labas, uuwi na sana ako magisa ngunit nakita ko ang mommy.
Naka tayo sa exit, muhkang hinihintay ako nito.

Tinignan nito ako. I see disappointment all over her face. Ngumiti ako at hindi ininda ang nakita ko.

this is me, love me as who i am. Please mom accept

Sinenyasan ako nito na pumasok sa kotse, agad namn akong sumunod, bawat pag tapak ko sa buhangin ay ang pagtama ng malamig nahangin sa aking balat.
Ganon rin ang tunog ng kalmadong paghampas ng mga tubig sa isla.

It was cold. I was shaking. I know kung saan papunta to.
My mom always hated gays. And she probably hate me now.
My mom..

Sumakay ito sa kotse, kaya naman sumakay na rin ako. Wala ni isa saamin ang umimik, ngunit kita ko ang paghigpit ng kapit nito sa manibela

Ng tuluyan na kami makalayo sa resort, ay tska nito binasag ang tahimik.
"you disappoint me sonya"

I silently close my fist and continue from being silent.
We're again eaten by silence.
So i decided to speak