Voices

Sleepless Night

The tears ran out as I silently cried

I made enough tears for a life time now

No, I can't cry but the pain's still there

Reminding me why 

why I'm no one

why I deserve the fate I chose for myself

why I'm at war

Those sleepless nights still come

telling me if I fall asleep

it should be the night I won't wake up

the night I can't take back

The obstacles that are called days

they are harder than ever

when you hear your family laughing while hiding in your room

you realize that it doesn't matter if you're there

when you fake your smile

and lie about your feelings

you know you're not okay

but you say it anyway

It's the numbness that you feel

when you take the blade and have it glide across your skin

small cuts at first

but then they become deeper

and deeper

until you realize you're tired

and you just want to fall asleep

and never wake up