ANDROPHOBIA II : TEN LONG YEARS TO WAIT |RICHIE TOZIER 2017 FANFICTION|

Reminisce | Connection | Anklet

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"I know what you wanna say to me Richie, I know it too well. I too was planning on saying that to you, but I won't"

"If you can wait, then I promise when I come back I won't leave you guys again. I won't leave you again"

"Dickhead, I'm not seeing any of this either"

I jolted awake from my bed. I touched my cheeks and was surprise that it was wet. Did I just cried in my sleep? Who is Richie? After I got home after our PE class, I slumped on my bed while holding the letter. I don't know why but it feels like this person is important to me. Like really important. Who is he?

Today is saturday so I don't any classes, I can laze around the house all day. But I stayed in bed with questions still unanswered ringing in my head. Up until now, his name is the only thing that kept stirring up memories from my past self. Did I really forgot something or someone important? What the hell am I gonna do?

"Hey Big sis?"

I heard March called out from outside. Crawling out of my burrito form, I opened the door and saw her smiling at me.

"Can I come in?"

"Sure haha"

She jumped on my bed and hugged my arms when I sat beside her. I patted her head and ruffled her hair.

"Can I come with you?"

"To where?"

"I heard from Liana that you're gonna be going with her to Derry"

When March mentioned Derry, a close my eyes in pain again. This time, I saw 5 shadows of boys with me in between, I quickly regained my senses when March tugged my shirt.

"Okay. You can come with me, only if Mom and Dad lets you go"

I answered. She quickly got off my bed and ran quickly downstairs. Probably to persuade Mom and Dad right now. That little kid is nothing like me. Wait, am I like that back then? I should stop being so curious about my past. But. There's a larger part of me that wants to know. I feel like I'll regret not remembering anything about what I had back then.

What the hell should I do? I really want to know what you are to me, Richie. Suddenly a knock on my door was heard again. I opened it expecting March to be here but I got a kiss on the lips instead.

"How's my princess?" I heard France spoke but I couldn't move at all. It was as if I got lost inside my memory again.

I was in a dark house walking together with a boy who seemed to be in glasses. The two of us seemed to be fighting about something. But what surprised me the most is that I was the one who kissed him. I regained my senses when France hugged me, I stepped back and pushed him a little bit away from me. That shocked him, but that shocked me more because of how my body acted towards him.

"Sweetie, what's wrong? I-I'm sorry, I just hugged you because you suddenly bursted into tears in front of me. I'm sorry"

France said and left me staring into space in my room. France and I have been together for almost 2 years, and I have never done that to him. I owe him my life. Mom said that when I forgot almost everything and didn't want to talk to people, France came over and tried to calm me down even though I scratched him and punched him on the face he didn't gave up on me. And I was in debted to him so when he asked me out, I immediately agreed and became his girlfriend.

And now I did that to him? All because of some weird flashbacks I'm seeing. All because of a boy I kept seeing in my memories. I'm such a horrible person. Why do I feel sad about my memories and not because I hurt France? Why am I crying over something? Why am I crying over someone named Richie?