Diary of a dead girl

Part 02

Angela's P.O.V

I walk down the hallway on my own. I hate this. I don't want to be here.
"Hey cutie." The moment I heard his voice I started to run down the corridor to get away from me.
"Watch where you're going!" Some shouted that I pushed out of my way. A little out of control and like a crazy freak, I bumbed into the teacher. She grabbed my shoulders to get my attention. Im
look at her with tears in my eyes. She's one of my teachers. I haven't done her homework. What now?
"Angela, what's the rush?" She asked giving me a sorry look. She look around us then took me hands and lead me into her classroom. She closes the door and give me a strict look.
"I'm sorry. I'm messed up." I cried. My whole body is shaking. I'm feeling scared and I want to die. That's it. I want to die. I stop crying and look at her that grab my arms giving me a worried look.
"Angela." She pulled me out of my gaze. "What's going on?"
"I can't live this way. I'm tyred of being afraid and...I can't take the pain any longer." I cried starting to feel frustrated. I pull out of her grib and throw myself down on a seat. "I hate them!"
I started banging my head against the desk. Mrs.Pepper stood there confused like she didnt know how to handle this.
"Why?" She asked putting her hands in my head's way. I look at her with my wet eyes looking like a zombie. "Why do you hate them. And who?"
"Somebody in this school killed me." I said to her. I scan her face. I'm out of control. I'm sick in my head. I'm nuts. "I'm hurt. I'm hurt badly."
"Is someone bullying you?" Mrs.Pepper asked placing her other hand on my back.
"I'm hurt." I kept repeating over and over again. I can't tell her or let her get to me. "I'm hurt badly. I'm hurt. I'm hurt badly."
"Angela, who hurt you?" She asked with a serious tone in her voice. I look deep into the pools of her eyes. I angrily stood out of my seat and headed out of the classroom.

So, I was stressing my buttocks off about homework. I don't know how I'm gonna explain to Mrs.Pepper that I didn't do my homework.

"Please be seated." She said scanning the class stoppig her eyes on me. I avoid eye contact with her and look down as I take my books out. "Please open yohr books so that I can see your homework."
No. I look horrified up at her that began to walk by with her classlist giving detention to those who's work isn't done. My heart is pounding out of my chest. I can't sit detention. I can't...

I look guiltily up at Mrs.Pepper that arrived at the desk infront of me.
"That's detention for you Demi Baker." She said and stop at my desk. She look down at my book that had the last work written in and the next page empty which is where I should've my homework. She's gonna be disappointed. She look at the rest of the class taking a deel breath. "When I passed by, please put your books away."
I took a deep breath nervously when she touched my shoulder. I look at her that gave me a little smile before moving on. She's not giving me detention. Why isn't she?

I got home safe. No, I'll never feel safe.
"Camera on." I sat on the floor in my room making a video. I don't know what to say. Where do I start? "Hey mom, dad and Melissa. I hope that you'll watch this video to the end to understand why I did what I did."

3rd Person's P.O.V

Angela takes a deep breath in nervously looking down then back at the camera playing with a blade in her fingers.
"I'm not perfect. I'm not...I'm hurt. Someone hurt me badly and I'm sorry that you're gonna have to pay the prize for it. Mom, I never meant to disappoint you. You were always there to dry up my tears, lift up my face and help me. I didn't tell you what happened because I'm afraid that it'll change you. Maybe if I did tell you, you would've been able to help me but I can't. I'm not strong enough. Dad, you are my hero. You have always been my hero. But in this case you're not." She look down starting to cry. She can't help herself. She look up at the ceiling then back at the camera. "Melissa, you're gonna walk around wondering why I did what I did. I'm sorry. Sorry Melissa, mom and dad. I asked myself for a solution to end this pain and I found it. I can't face anyone anymore. I'm in pain. I love you all so much. I love you more than words can describe. Truth is, I can't walk around people with guilt. Something happened to me and I need the pain to stop. I need everything to stop. I want to be a perfect daughter and the best sister but I can't be anything at all. Someone stole my rights, my personality and me. Someone out there turned me into a monster. I'm filled with horrible thoughts and disgusting...I can't handle the pain. I can't keep walking through hell if I'm burning out. I can't take the suffer. I didn't deserve to get hurt but because of that I deserve to go somewhere else where I'll no longer be afraid. I'm sick in my head. I'm diseased with depression and it's taking me over. When you find me, let me go. Don't try to save me please. I can't handle anything anymore. I'm too weak. I'm damaged. Melissa, I need you to give my diary to mom and dad. You know where I hid it. They deserve to know the truth and so do you. Don't do what I did. You're a beautiful talented girl that has an incredible voice. Roar like a lion sweetheart. Show the world your talent. Do it for me. Mom and dad, don't worry about me. Concentrate on Melissa. She needs both of you. I'm going somewhere else where I'll no longer feel fear, anger or sadness. I'm already dead inside now it's time to finish it off. Don't worry, it won't hurt. I love you."

She stop the video and take her phone out going to her Melissa's number. She took a brief moment to think on what to type.

*Hey Melis. If you get home with mom, don't come in my room okay. Trust me. Send mom up. Also, there's a video on the camera. You, mom and dad needs to watch it. I love you sis.*

She push the send button and put her phone down. She look at her little dog that came in the room sitting down making strange noises.
She put the blade in her wrists crying out in pain as she make deep cuts and the blood started streaming. She lay back on the mat looking at the dog starting to cry after she drank a bunch of sleeping pills. The dog ran to her and gave her a lick.
"It's alright buddy. You're a good boy." She whispered and close her eyes to head off into a sleep. The dog started making noises like it's crying. So he laid down next to her while she bled herself to death.