Part two: Sky and Shawn
Shawn Mendes and Sky Carrington have as every couple in life, a relationship with some ups and downs but the downs are always in the spotlight with them.(instagram story)
Started: may || ended: july
Hello everybody, I just want to tell you here that getting comments on my english and way of writing, hurts me a lot. English is not my first language and this book I have written when I was younger so my english was way worse than now. This is no disliking towards you guys but I just want the constant comments of my english and writing to stop. I do not have the time to edit the books, maybe one day I will but that I am not sure about. Thank you for understanding.
If you tought that our story was over than you are wrong. Famous life is not that easy as we tought it was when you become a couple for the public eye. The 'perfect' couple you need to be that you are seen as by all the people looking out for you.
Just like every other day since Shawn and me started dating, Shawn is not home when I am home, so that means I am alone all over again with no one to talk too.
Yes we see each other but I am pretty sure that is at events and most of the times in hotels. But home for a day or two that is a whole new level for us. It is prettt simple to explain here, when Shawn is home, I am away for something like a photoshoot or meeting and when I am home, Shawn is away for meetings or events. So easy explained, if you sum up our lives you can say we only see each other for work. Kind of sad.
I don't admit it to friends and for sure not to Shawn that I kind of want to stop this relationship because of no time but to myself I admit it everytime when I sit in the couch all alone again. It doesn't mean I don't love him anymore because I really do love him but it is just that my mind and my heart think different for the first time in this relationship, I hate to say this but maybe my mind is right for once.
And that is the hardest thing to admit to myself right now, ready to go down hill with me right now because it is a hell of a ride.
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And like every other day I fall asleep waiting for Shawn in the couch. Hoping that he will come home sooner but like every time he just comes home later than expected. "Sky you fell asleep in the couch again, you need to stop doing that." And it still hurts that he just says Sky like every other person does with me. I want him to call me honey or sweety like he used to do when we started dating.
"I was waiting for you." I get up slowly and lean in to kiss him."You don't have too. I told you that like hunderd times already." He gets up and starts to walk to our bedroom. He just ignored my kiss like he does every time.
"I just wanted to talk to you. You know have a proper conversation." For once, I think but I am not going to say that now. "I am tired Sky. We can do that another time." He gets in bed and puts the lights off. "Okay goodnight Shawn." I say while he already fell asleep because I hear his little snores.
And like every other night I lay in bed wide awake because I was really looking forward to talk to him about his day and random things for old time sakes. But like every other night my hopes just don't come out because he is too tired to talk.
And yes I get it because this life is not as easy as it looks like but a little talk can happen once in a while. And now the battle starts between my heart and my mind.
Do I listen to my heart who still loves Shawn. Or do I listen to my mind that tells me that I love the old Shawn still who cares about me and the feelings I had for him in school.
