I'm super excited for the banquet on Friday and to see A & L and to wear my pretty dress!! :) I had a really rough night last night I had a super vivid dream of H finding me and doing terrible things to me...I feel so unsafe knowing she's out in the world and that she could come get me at any moment if she truly wanted to. She's a lot bigger and stronger than me I know she could just swoop in and take me. I'm really fucking scared and really paranoid. I have so much anxiety it's unreal. Along with the nightmare I kept waking up at night because I hadn't got my meds before I fell asleep. Fan-fucking-tastic!! Last night was just a barrel of fun! I'm just all around not having the best time right now. I'm just trying to ride out the end of school and go stay with L & D for the summer and not see the park where it happened for a good while. The dream was so vivid and real I could feel it...I'm thinking of doing a dream entry but I'm not sure if it'd be good for me but oh whale.
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Eli's journal
NonfiksiHi I'm Eli and this is my journal. I talk about my chronic and mental illness and my trauma and just about everything.
