The jerk stole my first kiss

4

---jude---

What the hell...I felt my head throbbing between my fingers ...there was some painkillers and water in the table .I took some and clutched my head.i heard voices from the next room.how did I end up in my bed..I don't remember much.i saw Jude feeding my brother and talking with him softly.
"What are you doing in my house...and are you trying to kill my brother. Is that poison...."

"Oh shut up Johnny boy ...now you care about your brother I see...you were drunk like a pig and begged me to take you home and I took your sorry a** so that you won't get killed."

"I...well ...thank you for the help..now get out of my house"

"You won the competition of the greatest jerk to ever exist...f*** you "

He kissed my brother's forehead and smiled at him..

"ude..ude..stay ..."

My brother slurred.he never called anyone's name other than mine and mom's.not even his caretaker mary.oh shit...I forgot that she was on vacation and only be back by next week..I am a shitty brother.what if Jude wasn't here yesterday ...he would be alone and scared.i felt really bad...maybe Jude is not as bad as I thought him to be...I called Mary's cousin to take care of my brother...I am glad that he is in good hands...I went to school with much hesitation ... Bethany clinged to me like a parasite..I told her we are over ...but she is not even listening.

i know she wants to be my girlfriend just for money and popularity...she tried to kiss me...I pushed her to the floor.. everyone started to laugh at her....
I felt bad for her but she deserve this anyway..she cannot force me to do anything ..Jude was absent today..where did he go ..may be planning for his next revenge..... after the last hour I  quickly went home to check on my brother... of course everyone thought that I went for clubbing... people assume things ...you don't have a control over their thoughts..and I don't care about them...am not ashamed of telling others that I have a disabled brother.am just protecting him from this cruel world..I don't want them to make fun of me or my brother... because I had enough when we were at our last school...mom moved us to 4000 miles away from our last house...like people would be any good.. people are people.... nothing changes ....all are same... actually I found this after moving from place to place for the past 12 years ...I have visited all the states of America and attended 10 different school..my current school was the longest I have ever stayed...it's like we are some kind of criminals running for lives....mom never told the reason ...I don't know why I have skipped 2 years of schooling....am 18 years old.. I should be in college now.....she said I had a bad fever when I was 8 and I have to skip school ...and forget most of my childhood .... some kind of brain damage as a side effect....but At least I can drink and go clubbing ....me and my brother had a good bonding time after a long time..but he keep on calling the name "ude.." that bastard was with him just for a day and my brother is calling his name non stop...

I felt so happy after a very long time..... sometimes I don't acknowledge the fact that he is my brother...every time I saw him ,I felt guilty ....I can enjoy life ,talk ,walk, run,hit on girls.... basically the opposite of what he can do...I wish he was normal...but at the same time I felt he was lucky, not be aware of this selfish ,money thirsty ,cruel world and feel like you want to die every single day....I know I have everything but I felt like an unfinished piece of puzzle....like am not complete.....i had a sleepover with my brother after a long time....he even played games with me  ....it felt like were kids and the world is such a pretty place....I wish I could be like this forever
I leave him at the hands of Mary's cousin at home half-heartedly.

i trust him but still brotherly instincts  told me not to trust him..i drove to school with zero motivation....nowadays school felt like a hell to me ..... speaking of the devil ...I saw Jude rushing inside the class.....and a group of people surrounding my locker...I froze for a while ...it had posters with all kind of filthy slurs about  me hiding about my brother and pictures of him from the night I was drunk and left him alone in the house...the night Jude dropped me in my house.....my ...my brother....

"Dude your brother's retarded that's sad...."

"Mr.popular doesn't like his bro being a weakling..."

"What kind a person leave his brother drooling all alone in the house....he wanted him to be dead I guess ..want all the money for himself"

I felt my whole body shaking .

"stop it!!! everyone just stop ...." I screamed towards the crowd.

"Go to your class everyone...mr.sanders ...to my office... now"the principal said with pity ...
I slumped on the chair...

"I know who did this ....it's Jude....he was the only one one who know about my brother..."

"I see mr.sanders...we can't come to a conclusion without any evidence...unfortunately the CCTV is not working when this happened ...quite fishy...but we will find out who did this....don't worry  ..just go to your class..."I just nodded.

I moved my body towards the class.i feel so overwhelmed with sadness..I don't dislike or ashamed of my brother...I just want to protect him...

"Hey Johnny ...I saw the lockers...don't worry about it .. your bro..."

I never let him finish his sentence.i shoved him over the lockers with all m strength and gripped his shirts  and clenched my teeth.

"Will you just shut your f**ng mouth....how.dare. you ...how could you do this to me...i trusted you..I let you in my house and you did this..I know we were enemies but it's lowest of lows even  for your standards..
I expected something higher from you...not this kind of backstabbing...involving my innocent  brother...."

"John...I don't ...I will never do this  ..i swear to god ..I"

"Shut the f*** up...just expect something coming on your way soon...you will see who I am..just wait ...."

---jude---

I felt bad for Johnny....I know  he love his brother....but never in a million years I would do something cheap like this locker thing....I don't know who did this...but Johnny thinks I did it...I skipped school yesterday just to visit his brother..I even added my mobile number next to Johnny's  so that he could call me if something happened...I can't trust Johnny and his drinking habits...I always wanted a brother...and I found one in Johnny's brother..we bonded well and he called my name nonstop with smile and drool all over his face.. I found that , him and Johnny share the same birth date which is on next month.u heard Johnny talking about this party he is throwing at his house...I even wanted to buy a present for him..like a game set so that both of us could play......I thought I can be a better person...but I can see that people are still seeing me as a murderer... that's what I'll ever be in their eyes..no matter what I try.....I don't care about people accusing me for something I never did...it just hurts that Johnny doesn't believe me...am a fool to expect him to believe me...he said it himself...that am just a enemy of him... nothing but an enemy ....I wonder why it hurts...may be I like Johnny ...it's weird to like your enemy isn't it....am just waiting to see what his comeback would be...but this time I will never fight him back...I will let him hurt me...after all am used to all this pain and hurt ....