Dear Mother,
i miss you
umm...i hope you miss me
Are you doing well?
Do you have a job yet?
Mom, I love you
Do you love me?
Am I in your mind right now?
What are you doing?
Are you drinking again?
Mother, I want to ask you these things. Yet, I never see you, I never get to see the one who raised me. Please come and see us, we miss you. I cried, because my friend started talking about their mom. I need that love. I want you to support me, mom. I don't want to call you, I can't even cause I don't have your number. I want to see you again. I want to ask you some things. I miss you, and I hope you're okay. Has he hit you again? Can I ask you that? Or will you lie?
Tell me the truth please. I need to know, it's the only way to get it out of my mind. I really need to talk to you. Yet, will you understand my questions? Will you question me? I need to know. I never get to see you, cause "you don't have a ride". Or that " You don't have money". I'm SICK, of the excuses. I'm use to them already. I need you to understand. My friends ask me why I cry, and i have to respond with a smile and that I'm okay, and not to worry. Shouldn't they know? Shouldn't they know the pain in my chest, that I have to hold everyday? I'm sorry if I was a bad kid. I want to change, I don't like how I look, and how I act. Did I get that from you? Did you teach me these things? I started crying in class again, I started thinking about you.
Do you want to see me?