If Only I Accepted (On Hold)

4~Let's go swimming...

It's only been a day since I got rejected but everything's been a blur since then. Like I suspected, yesterday I only got my usual beatings after everyone got back from school. I'm glad I at least minimized the pain from what it could have been without the cakes. But the pain in my chest didn't go away, it actually got worse.

At one point when I was making dinner for the pack members in the house, it almost got to the point where I blacked out. I didn't though. It slowly went back down to feeling like I had only been hit with a car (trust me I should know how that feels). I hadn't ate anything since the apple before I shifted. I wouldn't be able to stomach it anyways.

Right now I was putting up the decorations for Jenna's birthday party. All of the parents went on a trip today with the younger kids to a hotel for the weekend. So they were all packed and gone this morning. I was all alone for this. The rest of the pack (including Gage) went to get ready for the party.

Thankfully I am almost done with the decorations. So then I can go make the food and drinks then go to bed. I really don't want to be by anyone right now. Even if I had a friend to talk to, I don't think I'd be talking to them right now. I'm actually glad no one's at the house right now because I don't think I could manage being in front of people.

I didn't have all day to work on everything though, so I just wiped my tears off of my face and got working in the kitchen. I had to make a giant cake and snacks for my sisters' party. It wasn't that hard actually but it was a good distraction for the time being. Then I finished doing everything I needed to and went back up to my room and laid on my bed in a daze.

'Sadie, am i really that horrible of a werewolf, that even my mate doesn't want me?'

'No, sweetie. It isn't your fault. Your a wonderful werewolf', Sadie responded.

'Then is it because I'm fat ,ugly, and weak? I just don't understand. How isn't it my fault that our mate rejected us? I don't get it at all.'

'No sweetie, you are not fat or ugly or weak. You are beautiful and very strong, to be honest though you are a little on the anorexic side...'

'Sadie, can we go run and stop at the lake?'

You see a few years ago I found this clearing in the woods in the middle of the night. In the back (I guess you could call it the back) there is a little waterfall with a lake beneath it. The little river leading to the waterfall is actually underground. The rest of the clearing is just a field but it's still really pretty.

'Of course sweetie. Do you want to grab your swimsuit?'

'Sure. Maybe a little swimming will help.'

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(A/N)

Okay so opinions???

I'm honestly not to sure this chapter but i'm glad i finally got it updated...

Yeah i am really sorry about the slow updates and short chapters...but i promise i am working on making the chapters longer...because of that though it takes a little while to update...

So again sorry for the slow updates and short chapters... ^smiles shyly^

Stay beautiful my lovelies

~ Miika ^=•.•=^