Geekster Monster [BTS Namjoon] editing:)

54• Cherry Blossoms

"BREAKING NEWS;
Idol Min Yoongi of Bangtansonyeondan shot and murdered a civilian in the Happiest Place on Korea, Everland last December 25 2019. Further investigation on the incident states that the idol was not on any kind of drug or alcohol during the time of the crime scene.
The 23 year old victim was a Japanese scholar student and was identified as Furukawa Rikaima--"

3rd Person's POV:

It's been days ever since the incident and as the day passes he just kept on getting worse. Kim Namjoon switched off the TV and threw the remote towards the ground, he stood up and heading back to his room while holding an empty can of alcohol but before he even took another step Jung Hoseok was there to block him from entering his room.

"Hyung! What are you going to do now cut yourself u-using this?" He said as he brought out what the leader use to relieve the pain, a razor.

One of the things Bangtan tried and successfully portrayed with the four albums of Love Yourself was to wonder around until you find what you're looking for to keep you happy, the answer always lies ahead so are you willing to take the step or stay in the past... but of course tears will be shed from the obstacles life gives you, you will experience fake love but loving the her or yourself will make things a little easy but it's hard to accomplish when you're lost and feeling scared but as time passes you will start to feel self love. But it seems like it didn't reach Namjoon that much, he and the others told the world to love theirselves, he and the others told the world that they were one big family, he told the world to keep on flying with their wings.

But it was all gone to waste. His wing got caught up in the storm and broke, left behind to die. You can't just say things to people to be happy when you're not happy at all.

Namjoon rolled his eyes and grabbed the object from Hoseok's hand but he wouldn't let go of it. Hoseok then got the chance to see if his suspicions were correct, since he noticed that their leader would wear long sleeves or a jacket even in a warm weather, so he rolled up the sleeves of Namjoon and saw plenty of cuts on his arm. Irritated Namjoon pushed Hoseok away and headed straight to his studio instead. As soon as he reached inside he immediately locked the door and didn't even bother to turn on the lights, his only source of light was the one outside illuminating through the tinted door of his studio, which was enough for him.

"Hyung! Open the door-please let's talk about this!" Hoseok said while banging on the door hoping Namjoon would come to his senses but it didn't budge.

Hoseok then decided to head to plan B and called Seokjin but Namjoon didn't bother to open the door. He suddenly hit his back on the wall and slowly sat on the floor, then he got a box filled with Soju underneath the papers he used to write songs with Min Yoongi and started drinking them one by one, none stop.

The banging and voices of his band mates were all muffled and he still drank.

I miss you...

He thought as sudden memories of Rikaima flashed through his eyes, the time where she would tell some stories of her and Rogu, especially the story of how he died but going back to reality he was now on his eighth bottle of soju and he didn't stopped there.

"I'm sorry!" He yelled and cried so loud that the whole world could hear him, speaking of the whole world, the fans of the once happy, cheerful and hardworking Bangtansonyeondan were all worried about him and were sad for his deceased girlfriend but he didn't care. All he cared was Rikaima's smile and voice and the will to see her again, if he needs to jump off a cliff to just see a glimpse of her was enough for the heartbroken leader.