Geekster Monster [BTS Namjoon] editing:)

36• Christmas [pt 3]

Mily's POV:

"Nani?" She said while I clutch hard onto my shirt above my beating heart as we watch Stranger Things.

"My poor heart... why you make me feel like this!!"

I said as I pointed at the laptop where the series is played, we made our own pillow fort while watching the season 2 of it. Kai just rolled her eyes and got back to watching the whole season in a marathon.

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I am so damn sleepy... how does this Japanese girl not feel tired?

It's currently 3 am in the morning... still awake.

"Mily-ah"

I turn to Rikaima who is currently watching the third to the last episode, I'm still surprised how she's so pumped up. Anyway I then gave a "hm?" As a response to her call. My eyes were very heavy now.

"You go ahead and sleep... I'm still watching"

"No, you might be crying like a kid when the monsters pop up... so I'll just wait"

"Are you- you know what never mind. Come let's sleep"

"R-really?"

"Or on second thought I can't sleep yet so... konbanwa~"

Rikaima said and smiled, she then jumped out of the fort, the pillows and blankets were scattered everywhere, I then sighed as I started fixing the bed. But since Rikaima's going out my guts are telling me to accompany her but my eyes and aching head said to sleep, I followed instead my desperation for sleep. Rikaima then headed out while I slept finally in peace.

Rikaima's POV:

December 19, 2017, a cold night or morning it is. Perfect time to maybe leave this world.

Snow was everywhere in the park, nobody around, currently walking around but then a memory of Rogu made me stop my tracks. When I saw a snow angel left unfinished I remember him. He was just 5 years old when he started making snow angels, it was funny and cute since he was doing it the wrong way, instead he just laid there and said "Angels come here! Make me an angel too!~". It was like yesterday he was alive, sadly it was not.

I lay down on the snow angel, looking at the sky it was already snowing.

You monster...

He was too young to leave this early, too young, he still have lots of things to learn and to achieve. He was too young to even get into my troubles and problems, it was my fault he left too early, it was my fault he had to die early, it was my fault.

I sat up and tried to stand, success, I then immediately ran. Tears ran across my cheeks as it fell to the cold white sand.

You idiot.....

I fell to my knees onto the snow and tears started flowing out of my eyes nonstop. I never wanted him to leave, and I never meant it.

"Rogu... gomenasai"

I cried. I'm the real killer, I should burn in Hell for this sin I made. I don't deserve to live, the world doesn't need me.

As I look for something I could use to kill myself I realized I can freeze to death, I then remove my jacket and lay on the ground, tears were still falling out of my eyes, the snow was cold but I deserve it.

Don't come for me...

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A few minuets have passed or maybe hours and my lips were starting to turn to ice, I could feel my warmth fading away and I could feel the coldness of this night taking over. I could hear my heartbeat now, I couldn't feel my fingers anymore. I gave up, I tried to reach for my jacket but failed, with some energy left I got my phone from my pocket and called Taehyung.