Skinny love

XI

I laughed, I don't know why I laughed just at the thought that here before me stood a boy who actually cared to talk to me....I mean harry always understood me and lately he wasn't around anymore.

I was afraid of him.

Afraid of this place.

"Thank you again" I nodded quietly.

"No problem, and tomorrow we are going to be going out for lunch because I want to hear more about you." He pointed at my chest and something in me caused me to laugh and blush.

I knew I shouldn't,

This was my first time though... Blushing, laughing, talking.

"I don't know..." I fumbled with my fingers.

"Please."

"Just as friends? Okay."

He looked confused but he understood where I was coming from and nodded.

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"You know you shouldn't be talking to him ashley." Ms.Margaret's voice chimed into my blank thought while I stood fiddling with my fingers.

"Please don't tell harry."

"Don't tell harry what..?" A voice behind me chimed in.

There before me stood a curly haired boy with baggy eyes and a black shirt which was different because I was so used to seeing him in the same clothes..

I couldn't possibly speak to him.

Not now.

I walked past him with my head down before he gripped onto my hand.

"Please can we talk?" I wanted to reject his offer but I couldn't his brown eyes made me weak and nervous.

I nodded.

We sat in the room upstairs and I didn't find any strength to speak lately.

"I'm so so so sorryy ash" I've noticed harry was the only person I've ever let call me ash.... It was our thing.

Ours.

"Har." I began but shut myself up again.

"Ash, please I meant no harm it's just I didn't know how to possibly let you know that I got involved into that mess and then I gained money so quickly and I know I was wrong. I should have never kept you working and you always cried yourself to sleep when we didn't have a simple dime to spare to eat and I was selfish. I admit. I just don't want you to hate me forever ash. Please." He squeezed my hand lightly.

I parted my lips speak "har it's fine. I promise I forgive you." I still didn't completely trust him but in the end I missed harry. I threw myself into his arms and embraced his scent I could feel the smile forming on his lips.

"It's crazy you know?"

"What is?"

"It was crazy getting this money and I couldn't possibly find a way to keep it all so I bought this house and I planned on bringing you here.... But you know things happened. Two poor kids sitting here in a mansion"

"Please be careful harry." I blurted out.

"Baby girl, no one is ever going to hurt you again."

With those words I was left to be satisfied

Atleast I believed I was.

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"Let me take you out for lunch " his words ringed throughout my head while I sat out front on our bench now it was almost four o'clock and still no sign of justin and his car... I wore a nice pastel lavender dress I found in the end of my close. It fit a bit lose but it was good enough for me. My kiss shirt was too worn out for this occasion.

Now it was 5 o'clock and still no sign of him. As Harry's car pulled up front so did his Justin's car pulled into his drive way but he wasn't alone.. He was with Selena. I couldn't believe this.

I didn't know if I should be angry or happy part of me was angry of being stood up? And the other part of me was bitter happy for them..

To think he CARED.

"A beautiful rose for a beautiful lady" Harry handed me a white rose before chuckling.

I snapped out of my selfish thoughts "thank you." I nodded

"Let me take you out for lunch my treat." He grinned

I didn't know how exactly to accept his offer since I didn't feel comfortable with him wasting his money on me..

But I nodded.

"Where are we going?"

"It's a surprise." He laughed

I knew harry was my best friend and all but this was certainly a side to him I've never seen? It wasn't exactly a bad side but more like a sweet side and this side of him made me feel more loved than I've ever felt In years.

I stared down onto my scarred wrist and I caught harry looking at me as he took my hand and gently kissed my wrist.

"It's over now, you're goin to be happy I promise."

"How do you know I am not already happy?"

"Eyes ash, your eyes.. When you're happy they turn bright and almost BLIND ME! But when you're sad your eyes turn dull and baggy."

"I'm trying harry"

I couldn't help but to think of justin and selena again... Where they in love or just addicted to the pain of having each other there..

"Harry do you believe in love?"

"Only fools fall in love ash."

"Do you think I'll ever fall in love."

"I don't know ash. I don't know."

The rest of the night consisted with Harry pulling corny jokes and attempting to make me laugh and I swear when I saw reflection in the mirror. I swear my eyes were brighter.

Thank you harry.

For making me feel happy again.