It Turn's Out Golden... (The Wanted Fanfiction)

Chapter 33 - I will never forget you

Walking through the streets of Ibiza on my own at 3:27 in the morning isn't a very good idea in most people's minds. There can be strange people around, and you never know what could happen. Well, people you know and used to love could do horrible things to you too. Just like what just happened. Walking down the street, I feel like everyone is looking at me. Everyone is staring at me. Everyone is laughing at me. They are all looking at me in disgust and disgrace. I am disgusted with myself. Disgusted that I couldn't bring myself to stop him. Disgusted that I didn't have any will power. I feel vunerable, and I feel used. How could something like that make you feel useless and unaccepted in an instance? Images keep going through my head. Images of him. Images of him doing that. I can't take it anymore. I ran, ran as fast as I could to the hotel. Passing people that are only just coming out of nightclubs, drunk. One man approached me, asking if I was okay. I flinched as he just my arm and started to run again. I ran through the hotel doors, past reception, past the pool and into the kitchen. I picked up the first sharp object that I could find. A knife. I placed it onto the pocket of my jeans, and walked up to the room, trying to act as normal as I could to make sure no-one suspected anything. Passing the reception, I picked up a pen and paper and ran into the lift. My hands were hands were now shaking. I really hope that none of the boys were back yet. And just to my luck, they wasn't. I placed the knife on the side, leant over the dresser and started to write a note,

Tom,

I am really sorry to put you through this. I know that we have not long met, and even though we have hardly spent any time together, I have grown to love you. I love the fact that you are so protective over who you love most, including trying to protect me. I love you, and I always will. There is no need to worry about me now, as I am someplace else. Someplace no-body can hurt me anymore. I love you.

Nathan,

Look after Ellie will you? Make sure you don't put her through as much pain as I will probably put on Tom. Make sure you look after him and keep him safe. Thankyou for everything, and our little chats helped me more than you can ever imagine. Never forget that peice od advice I gave to you :).

Siva,

Seev. I don't know what to say. But I do know that I want to say that I love you and your kindness goes a long way. You helped me a lot through my times of need and I thank you for that. Make sure the other boys keep in line!  ;).

Jay,

Jay-bird. Make sure you don't give the lads too much trouble, yeah. And try not to get drunk too much, because you know what you are like when you are drunk ;). I am going to miss you.

Max,

You never failed to make me laugh. Your dad jokes are legendary, so make sure that you never stop tell them! Even if the boys tell you that t are rubbish. Also, tell Martin I told him to stop sneaking cakes into his office. That's right, I saw you! Anyway, I am going to miss you and you are always going to be in a special place in me.

Ellie,

I know you. And I know that you are going to try and blame this all on yourself. But don't. Because none of this is your fault. And it never will be, however much you blame yourself. I love you, and you are the bestest friend that anybody could ever wish for. You cute, funny and clever. And I hope that Nathan will take good care of you, because you two make such a cute couple. Remember, If you get married, keep me a chair yeah? Because I will be there watching ;). Kisses babycakes xx

Thankyou for making these past few weeks in my life unforgettable. I couldn't have wished for better people to have met before my life ended, and never forget, I will always be watching over you. I love you and I always will xxx

I folded the peice of paper and left it on the dresser in clear sight, making sure that they would be able to see it. I walked over to the bed and sat down. This is it. Thinking back to these past couple of weeks, they have been the best that I have ever had. And I am glad that I have met the boys. I picked the knife up and plunged it into my stomach. The pain getting increasingly worse with ever second that went. I layed back on the bed and closed my eyes. Hopeing that the pain would not last much longer.