11:11||Jeongchan✔️

Jeongin

*WARNING:if you are not comfortable about suicide or schizophrenia, I suggest for you to not read this chapter. Thank you~*
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I walked down the empty hallways. Quiet. 'Don't make a noise'
' Be quiet you useless shit'
'No one loves you'
That's what they told me. The voices in my head are cruel. How can one self destroy their own mind?
'This is why all your friends don't like you'
'You're too loud and obnoxious'
Stop! Please stop! Leave me alone I can't take it. Let me live. I'm just 16.. I have to deal with this until I die.
'Kill yourself.'
I walked up the stairs. It led me to the roof. Is this what you want? I'll do it even if you didn't ask. Anything.

Anything to get you out of my mind.
'Pathetic. Pathetic people like you don't deserve to live''
I'm doing it! I'm doing what your asking! Shut up. Shut up. Shut up.
'I'm just telling you the truth.. you know, that kid Chan....he looked at you. Definitely regretted taking that class.'
I know. I opened the door slightly to make sure nobody was there. It was all to myself. I walked slowly to the edge and looked down, everyone one was in their rooms.
'Jump. Jump. Do it!'
My left foot was already on the edge, just a small push and I can be free. I took a deep breath and held back my tears that where struggling to stay in. I started to put pressure on my foot and closely started to jump off.

I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist. They pulled me back so I can fall backwards. I looked at the now setting sun, indicating that the gloomy day was going to end.

I didn't want to look at the person. Why did he help me? It was my chance, no one was paying attention to me. Leave me please.

"Don't do it." Such a calming voice. A voice that can help people. A voice that everyone needs. A voice I will never hear again. I bursted out in tears. One by one falling on my pale hands.

The cold air was passing along, blowing my dark hair. I couldn't stop them. They were close to winning.

" I don't know what made you attempt such a horrible thing. I'm not going to tell you to go get help. I just want you to honestly answer my question." The boy slowly started to walk towards me. He sat next to me on the ground and looked at the sunset with me. I don't want to look at him.

"Okay." I said, my shaky voice that was caused by my bitter tears that was slowly going away.

"Are you okay?" He said, not looking at me. It was just a question, nothing else to it. No emotion, nothing.

" No... I'm not okay" I could feel his eyes staring at me. Taking in all of my features. My now puffy eyes, red nose and cheeks. Don't look at him. It's better if you don't.

"Thank you." He left without saying another word.His calming voice. The warm aura that is now gone turned into a cold, empty space that I longed for to be gone.

I sat alone looking at the sunset. It's beautiful. Warm colors splashed across the sky. The sun was giving in to the dark sky. Once again, something will always come in to brighten the dark sky. I am the dark sky. No one likes me. When will my bright, warm sun come to me?
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Chan

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|It's 11:11 P.M|
Goodnight my beautiful star. I am looking at the dark sky that is filled with shining stars. The stars are just like you. You are so bright. Even if the stars die and loose their brightness, there will always be a new one born again to shine the dark sky. I wish for you to always be happy. Goodnight my love.
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