11:11||Jeongchan✔️

Don't go

I looked out the window, watching the students who had P.E running outside playing lacrosse. I felt a little tap on my shoulder. I looked over to a boy who was tall and had brown hair.

" I'm new.. is it okay if I can sit here?" He said while looking at all direction, but his dark eyes didn't meet mine. I took a good look at him but I still decided to let him sit with me.

" yeah, sure" I gave him a smile and he returned one with a bright one.

"I'm Hyunjin, but you can call me Jinnie." He said In a very exciting voice. It sounded like he faked it. It didn't sound like he didn't want to talk to me. Instead it seemed like he was trying to rush things.

"Ok then" I said. I tried to keep it small since it's obvious he wanted to change subjects.

"Umm can I ask you something?" He looked at me. His feet was tapping on the floor and his fingers were fidgeting.

"What do you think about suicide?"  He lost me there. I was caught off guard, but I decided to look anywhere that didn't have to do with him. I was trying to think of something. I never really thought about it.

"It's not something to joke around with. I know a lot people just think that whatever reason they kill themselves for is stupid. They just don't understand what these people go through."

"Ah..okay...I need to go to my next class see you later." With that he waved at me and left. Strange..was he thinking about it? Did he need me to say that it was a bad thing?

Jeongin

I stayed home after that day. I wasn't ready to go to school. If only I got a glimpse of his face.If only I thanked him. If only I didn't push him away.

His presence left something on me.
'Don't worry he's not going to care'
'Oh honey, he probably will come back'

I missed this voice in my head. I had many terrible voices, but this one helped a lot. Why didn't this voice stay when I needed it?

Why didn't the boys voice leave my head. His caring and understanding personality.
'Next time tell him to not go. Say the words: don't go, please don't go'
'leave him alone he doesn't need your encouragement'

I hope I have the chance to tell him that.
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Chan

I walked passed a lot of people. Where is Jeongin? I bad feeling was in my stomach. I didn't know him well enough to go to his house. I stood near my locker. I had free period so no one was in the hall. I heard footsteps and decided to hide in a corner.
" hey you know that kid Jeongin"

"Yeah what about him"

"I was stressed out about being new yesterday and went upstairs. I saw him trying to jump of the roof, but I was able to pull him back before he did." They stopped at one of their lockers.

"Oh... are you sure? He's really a happy kid. He has such a bright smile. I think you mistook him for someone else."

" I might be..." Footsteps faded away in the distance. I leaned to the wall and started to dropped down to the floor. My Jeongin isn't okay.

Why? I thought he was okay. That's not true. It's not true. He is lying. There is no way my bright and happy Jeongin would do that.

Tears started to fall as I ran outside. Pushing through the doors and I left to my favorite spot. The mountain. I stayed there all night. I looked at the stars and made my wish. I was sobbing wishing to the stars. I guess the most beautiful stars are also tired of being up there.
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|It's 11:11 P.M|

I overheard. I can't help you. I can't go to your house and hug you. I'm not a person you would want to see. He was lying right? You didn't want to do that? If you did I hope you understand that you have many people who love you. My wish for tonight is for you to get to know me. That way I can help you. Sleep well love.
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