That Kiss (Zelo & Sehun fanfic)

My Life Saviour.

This love will be the death of me.

Ok that was exaggerating..

but what if it's true? what if i told you that I'm depressed and i need help? I can't stand this anymore. I've been through a lot. It has been a week I didn't come to school. I got plenty missed calls from Zelo and my other friends but I didn't bother to pick up one. I'm depressed.. yes I'm super uber depressed. Never once I stepped out from this room.

A dirty room, which I've spent my one week in it. Believe it or not, I only bathed once lol. Disgusting am I? You don't have to say anything, because I knew the truth.

What is love? Many authors, singers, celebrities have been saying that love is all around, love is everything, love is blablabla, and that love.. is happiness. hah. happiness? What is that? What it means to be happy? Define happiness for me.

What does it feels like to be missed? How do you miss someone? How? How? ...How?

Have you ever miss someone and it really hurts so bad? Thinking the person you love the most, was once your world, your universe, your everything, and then comes a day when everything is shattered into pieces, the person you loved the most has no status anymore, it's kinda awkward isn't it? All you think about is thinking it's your fault. Everything comes from you. You want to end your life. And then you came to realise that all the words that have been said are shitty, beautiful lies. soothing but cruel?

Guys. Have you ever feel like you are so depressed that you tend to cut your wrists with razor blades? Yeah. You could say my bedsheet is full of blood. Jokes. But partly correct. Well sorry, I'm in no mood to joke around now. I can't think straight, I can't. I love Sehun too much, and it made a great impact on me. He shot me like I was nothing to him, making out with other girl in the park. Funny eh? Not at all dude.

It's night.

I don't think I'm coming for school tomorrow. Too lazy to go to school. I look at my wrists. Full of scars, deep ones to be precise. I look at our pictures on the bedside. I look at it. Look it again.

And again...

and again.

And tears start to fall. I'm so hurt Sehun why can't you see me that I'm in a mess? Tell me that you didn't mean it and it was all a joke. Tell me that you cared for me deeply. Tell me and show me that you words before this were all true. After seeing this, are you happy or sad? Am i the definition of beautiful for you? after seeing my ugly side of me?

I take the razor blades. I promised to myself. Tonight will be the last one I'm gonna hurt myself. I'm joining you soon, God. I'm sorry that I hurt myself a lot.

I cut myself again. More and more and more. But I can't feel any pain..? Was it because.. I'm immune to it? Too many things on my mind. I think I shall stop now. I've suffered a lot.. It's time... to end my life.

The rope on the celing was always ready since the day we broke up. Because I knew this day would come so I wouldn't waste my time and I would end my suffering soon enough. I take the ladder...

climb on it..

wear it-

'HYO WON!'

someone pushed me vigorously to the side.

I looked up, I start to cry on his shoulders and cling on his shirt tightly.

You knew all along.. why didn't you help?

'I'm so broken, can't you see me? I'm a mess.'

'You shall rest now.'

And i fall into deep sleep.

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hi guys! sorry for the depressing update. well you see.. I'm kinda in the mood into these depressing stuffs and yeah I just broke up with my boyfriend recently too. So whatever I wrote up there was a reflection to what I am feeling and yeah I hope I may get over him soon enough? :-)

Anyway guys, hope you enjoy and pleAse vote and comment!