This Side of Paradise (Hayley Kiyoko Fanfiction)

1 - Dear Diary...

Dear Diary...

Hayley and I live together for 3 months now. 

Everything was fine and stuff did go well all the time. She didn't had to go to concerts or anything. It was like a long term holiday in a dream. 

My sister was and is still pregnant and I already planned some names for the new family member! Besides, Leena and Rob got Robs first kid from another women back. So now I am an Aunt for a little 5-year-old Girl too.

The Girl is named Eve and we became friends real quick. She has red hair, just like her Mother had and wonderful green eyes, also like her Mother has. Sadly her Mother died in an accident. 

But now, Leena will be her Mother and I'm sure she will do good as a mother!

Hayley and I had a date every two days and each time we were somewhere else. But now things have changed. 

Yea, sure... we still do see eachother and do have dates and stuff. But she has to "work" so much, I barely see her. And when we see eachother, we usually just eat something and then she has to go again. 

It feels like I am still alone, even with a girlfriend. 

I'm happy with her, but also I'm not. It's just a mixed feeling I have and I don't really know WHAT it is. So now I hope things will change quick... I want to spent more time with her. 

I want the Hayley back who showed me her love. And not just rushed back home, gives me a kiss and leaves right after dinner or lunch. 

I want more time to spent with her... just to be with her. Nothing more. 

She seems like she doesn't care about me or my feelings anymore...  I know that isn't true, but it feels that way.

~G