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Speed Of Pain

Chapter 7 – Speed Of Pain

{Amy POV}

“I had good reason!” I snapped back, both of us freezing as we felt another presence in the room.

“Oh my God…” I heard an all too familiar voice. “A-Amy?”

Trembling, I slowly turned to face the newcomer, my voice not nearly as confident as I wanted it when I finally spoke. “Marilyn…”

“You…you’re here…” he spoke softly, taking a few tentative steps towards me.

“So it would appear…” I replied just as quietly, not sure exactly what I was feeling.

I watched as Marilyn came to stand in front of me, all tight leather and red hair, and place a trembling hand on my shoulder; smiling and pulling me to him in a bone crushing hug. “You’re real!” he breathed, voice shaking slightly. “You’re real…and you’re alright…”

“Well of course I’m alright…you taught me how to take care of myself.” I replied with a strained laugh as I felt his grip change from relieved hug to fingers digging into my arms.

He pulled back from me suddenly, eyes filled with rage. “Why did you leave me?!” he shouted in my face and I cringed back against a wall. “Why?! Tell me! Why?!”

“Because I was pregnant!” I screamed back at him and he froze, his breath caught in his throat. “I was pregnant and scared and so I ran and I hid and I’m sorry!” I fumed as he stared at me, shocked. My breathing returned to normal as I stood straight again, no longer afraid. “And I’d do it again.”

“You were pregnant?” he asked, but he sounded like he wasn’t really here.

I nodded. “I had twins…Elsie and Aden.”

“How do we know they’re actually his?” Pogo asked, uncertain.

“Because I was her first.” Marilyn replied bluntly. “You’ve no right to doubt what she says.”

“Well, he does…he’s your friend.” I replied with a frown.

“None-the-less…” Marilyn waved a dismissive hand at my comment before striding towards me purposefully; his hands resting on my shoulders gently. “I…I want to meet them…”

My mouth fell open, stunned at his request. But I was more stunned when Marilyn leant down and kissed me, murmuring softly. “I’ve missed you…”

And for a moment…I let him kiss me, realising how much I’d missed the gentle caress he was once again giving me…but then I snapped out of it. I pushed him away as much as I could without making him angry and looked up into his bemused face, shaking my head. “You…you can’t do that…”

“Do you have somebody else?” Marilyn asked as he cocked an eyebrow at me and I shook my head slowly. “Then, yes I can.”

I don’t know how I managed to think in that moment, but I uttered the one word that snapped him back into the real world. “Rose…” I saw the look in his eyes as he straightened and looked down his nose at me…I’d never felt smaller in my life. I touched his cheek briefly and sighed as I turned to leave. “I’ve gotta go…” I stopped as I reached the door and turned to smile weakly at Jeordie. “Oi! Twiggy!” I smirked when he looked at me. “I’ll be in touch.” He nodded and smiled back at me as I walked out the door, calling over my shoulder, “Remember what you asked for!”

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{Marilyn POV}

Twiggy and I had opted to stay in Seattle. I had to see Amy again…I needed to meet my children… and Twiggy wanted to make sure she was actually alright. We’d been walking around the upper-side shops when I saw her and pulled Twiggy up short.

“What?!” Twiggy demanded, but looked in the direction I was pointing. “Oh!” he was going to call out to her but I stopped him.

“She won’t let us near her home if she knows we’re here…” I made a face at having to say that. Had our love really come to this? She feared my influence on our children that much? Or was I being insane?

“So…we tail her?” Twiggy asked with a frown and I nodded.

“Yes…we tail her.” I replied seriously and pulled him across the busy street. We followed her for a long time, and I raised an eyebrow at the building she entered…it was a little swanky for her tastes I would’ve thought. We followed her into the building and I watched to see where the elevator stopped… “Eighth floor…c’mon…” I pulled Twiggy up to the elevator as it came back down, pushing a button on the intercom so talk to the residents.

“Um, hello?” an unfamiliar female voice answered.

“Oh, hi, um, we’re friends of Amy’s but we missed the lift…could we come up?” Twiggy asked politely and I rolled my eyes a little. “It’s just…you’ll have to let us in…”

“Oh, of course, I’ll be right down.” The voice answered happily and we watched the elevator go up to her and come down again. I gaped as the doors opened and a woman who resembled Amy, though a few years older, smiled at us. “Hi, I’m Amy’s big sister, Tess.”

“Hi!” Twiggy beamed. “I’m Jeordie…we’ve spoken on the phone before.”

“Oh! Nice to put a face to the name!” Tess smiled back and ushered Twiggy and I into the elevator. “So, what brings you to Seattle…I take it you’re not local boys.”

“No, definitely not…” Twiggy chuckled. “Bit wet for my liking.”

Tess nodded. “Ah, that’s why Amy came here…she loves-”

“Stormy, rainy days…” I nodded, watching the light travel up the floors and finally stop.

Tess smiled and let us into the apartment and I felt my eyes widen as I saw twins, that looked remarkably like Amy and I, running around giggling, happily ignoring me and Twiggy as Tess called out to Amy.

“What’s wrong?! Are they okay?!” I heard Amy ask worriedly as she came out of the kitchen and froze when she saw us. “Marilyn?!”

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{Amy POV}

I heard the lift door ping open and Tess call out over the laughter of the twins, but I panicked. “What’s wrong?! Are they okay?!” I asked anxiously as I walked out of the kitchen… but I froze when I saw who Tess had let in. “Marilyn?!” I gaped as he took a step towards me and then took a step back, becoming defensive. “What on Earth are you doing here?” I asked quietly, looking from the twins to Marilyn; seeing him in their faces more than ever.

“Isn’t it obvious?” Marilyn looked at me pointedly before and then towards Elsie and Aden playing and giggling quietly on the floor. “I’m here for you…and our children.”

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Thinking about: Kat & Lauren

Feels: sleepy

Listening to: Wicked Game ~ HIM