Rumors (Jinson)

Eighteen

"I'm sorry Jackson, I can't..."

Jackson feared Jinyoung would say those words, he knew he should have not said anything. But that was the only thing he could say to break the silence between them.
"Jackson...I'm really sorry. It's jus-"
"I don't want to hear any excuses Jinyoung, I really don't. Enjoy your Coffee."
Jackson then threw a couple of five dollar bills on the table and stormed out of the cafe.

A gust of rain hit Jackson in the face, he watched as the rain poured down from the sky hitting roughly on the concrete. People rushed by with umbrellas in their hands frantically looking for dry shelter, unlike Jackson he didn't have an umbrella nor a jacket. He sighed and ran out into the rain, the cold rain hit him against the face as he continued running in the ran. He felt his shoes splash in puddles feeling the cold water soaking his socks, he felt his clothes become more wet and cold as he rushed through the rain. He finally reached his apartment building and dried himself off, his wet clothes clinged to his body as the hot air brushed Against his cold skin as he walked through the hallway to the elevator.

Jaebum banged on Jacksons apartment door for what felt like the hundreth time, he tried calling him but he didn't answer.
Jaebum sighed and put his hand on the doornob and turned it to find it unlocked, Jb stepped inside and closed the door behind him.
"Jackson!" Jaebum called kicking off his shoes "You left your door unlocked!"
Jaebum looked around Jacksons apartment to find him nowhere in sight, there wasn't even an indication that he was home.
He walked over to Jacksons bedroom door and slowly pushed it open, it was completely dark only a spot of sunlight beamed down on Jacksons face.

Jaebum slowly walked inside the dark room and turned on the light, Jackson was surrounded by empty beer bottles.
"Jackson.." Jaebum sighed picking up one of the bottles "you're better than this buddy..."
He placed the bottle back on top of Jackson and picked up Jacksons phone, he turned it on finding that Jacksons phone was blowing up with messages.

                =New Unread messages!=
     Park Jinyoung (4)
     Dad Wang (2) & Missed calls (3)
     Im Jaebum (6) & Missed calls (11)
     Bambam (2)

Jaebum looked up at Jackson who was still fast asleep, he then clicked on the messages from Jinyoung.

Park Jinyoung: Jackson I'm sorry
Park Jinyoung: Jackson please let me explain
Park Jinyoung: Answer me please
Park Jinyoung: you can't ignore me forever Jackson just please call me so we can talk things out

Jaebum sighed, he tucked Jacksons phone in his pocket and walked over to the edge of the bed where Jackson was sleeping.

"Jackson wake up." He said shaking him
Jackson let out a groan and pushed Jaebums hand away.
"Jackson. Wake up." Jaebum shook Jackson harder
"Leave me alone." Jackson groaned putting a pillow over his face
"I said get up Jackson!" Jaebum snatched the pillow from over Jacksons face
"Fuck off!" Jackson yelled pulling the covers over his face

Jaebum sighed and yanked the covers from over Jackson, he grabbed Jackson by the foot and pulled him out of bed watching him fall onto the floor.
"I said leave me alone!" Jackson yelled crawling back onto the bed
"Jackson you had me worried half to death, I thought something bad Happened to you!"
Jackson didn't respond, he yanked the covers from Jaebum and pulled them over him.

"Is this how you want to live you're life Jackson? Getting drunk over someone that doesn't even love you?"
"Fuck of Jaebum, Jinyoung does love me. He's just not in a good spot right now."
"No he doesn't, he's only using you. Why can't you see that?"
"Your just jealous because I fucked Jinyoung instead of you."
"Ha, I have nothing to be jealous of. I didn't miss out on anything."
"Just fucking leave Jaebum, fucking get out!"
"You want me to leave because YOU can't stand the Truth?! Fucking grow up Jackson, Jinyoung hurts you every fucking time you give him something. Then you walk around all fucking hurt and shit, you're the problem because you're dumbass won't realize Jinyoung is bad news."

Jackson pulled the overs from over him and jumped out of bed and walked over to Jaebum shoving him up against the wall.

"I said fucking leave! Leave! I don't what to see your fucking face!" Jackson yelled
Jaebum pulled Jacksons phone from out of his pocket and tossed it on the bed, he looked at Jackson then left.
Jackson grabbed one of the empty beer bottles from off his bed and threw it against the wall, watching the clear glass bottle shatter into countless pieces. He picked up another bottle and did the same, the tiny glass pieces glisten in the small light of sunshine that peeped from closed curtains.

Jackson bent down and smashed his fist in the pool of broken glass, a million of pieces of glass stabbed his hand Jackson felt the pain rush through out his hand. Blood rushed down his hand as the glass stuck in his knuckles and fingers, he watched as his thick blood rush down his arm plopping down onto the floor.
Jacksons mind was racing, it was racing too much he forgot why he was angry.
But deep down he knew why, because he was confused and completely heartbroken.
He was confused to why this was happening to him, why was Jinyoung rejecting him after they made love. He was confused to why his life was getting more complicated just because he liked Jinyoung, was it because of him?

Did Jacksons sexuality cause all of this?