Secret words [ Lee Donghae FF ]

23.Hormones

"i need to fix this immediately " i grabbed my stuff and hurried out of the building , the boss was not there he had some meeting and thank god he did , i grabbed the first taxi and headed to the clinic , 

" i need it out of me " i said panacing to the Doctor in front of me and he smiled completely aware of the state i was in which was a one hundred percent "losing my shit" kind of state.

" come down Miss y/n , i know what you are going through now , it's perfectly normal to freak out like this , its your first time and its big news , i am sure Mr Lee is going to be extremely happy to hear the news " and my eyes shoot and my body flipped at his name 

" what!! what do you mean? did you tell him ?" please say no !

" of course not Ma'am we don't have the right to share confidential information about our patient without their consent " thank the lord  for the existence of the medical ethics , 

" but if i may say Ma'am i think it's better if you share the news with him " ok Mister 'good doctor ' it's none of your business , and look at him all cocky how can he be sure sure that Donghae is the father !! damn it i bet they already have done some test to know who is the father , ughh i hate rich people ,

i just plastered a genuine polite smile on my face " yes sure , as soon as he will be ready for it , and Doctor i appreciate it if we keep this between us " with a firm handshake

" absolutely Ma'am" though i dont trust u but i will pretend that i do .

my trip back to the office was like one of  those long roller coaster , i have played over a thousand senario in my head , and giggled every possible outcome of this whole complicated situation .

but i have realised that i am a grown independent women and i have to accept whatever he decide to do , either he welcome the pregnancy and be part of my life for the rest of it which is what i wanted , or he will freak out just as i did when i found out about it and chose to leave , which i would be totally cool with it , i can do it by myself , yes !! yes i can 

really are you sure y/n , no i am no quite sure 

and suddenly my phone started ringing in my purse 

" hi baby " i said trying not to be so obvious of the internal battle that i was having at that moment  

" hii , where are you ? i just came back from the meeting and you are not here  " 

" yeah !! well i just had to do some shopping , i ll be there in a five ,bay " i lied of course 

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" where is your shopping " he said looking behind me and rising that famous eyebrow , ohh snap !! 

" i didn't find what i was looking for " 

" next time just give it to the driver he will get all you need ok bab" he said and went back on his work and i smiled nervously , that was close . 

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so here i am y/n , i  just discovered that i am lee dahee and i am in love with my cousin who is the father of my future child and i am almost 1 month pregnant  , bet you can't beat that haa !! if you were in my place what would you do ? i was feeling like a completely different person , i started smelling thing that normally i don't , even Donghae perfume started bothering me , every time he is near i just avoid his smell, i started craving elso !! can u believe that i wanted to eat watermelon ohh no no let me put it in other words I STARTED FANCYING WATERMELON   which i normally hate , the sound of my co-worker's high heel was driving me crazy , the smell of the disgusting morning coffee iww!! a lot of thing started shifting and it was only few days after , how i am gonna fucking survive these whole nine month , i was doomed , and ohh yeah i still didn't tell him anything ...... i just couldn't .