Hi reader.
My name is Nicole, im 18 at the moment..
I didnt think I'd last this long.. Cause i sufferfrom depression and anxiety disorder.. It just kicks in you know. It became worse like it doesnt just kick at night... Sometimes it happens on an anyday morning, while im eating with my family or friends..suddenly I'll feel alone and empty and it would continue throughout the day.
I was suicidal at the age of 11 trying to kill myself at the gradeschool girl's comfort room but my friend came busting in.
Then it hit me again during 2nd year highschool..
Wanted to kill myself but i sought a psychiatrist
Who also gave up on me. Fuck them.
I dint expect that I'll last this long haha seriously... First time I let a guy in he just used me. He was an asshole. At that moment, i thought maybe I was meant to be alone. Didnt want to believe in love. But then this guy came... He was indeed a blessing in disguise.
