"B-baekhyun?"
My eyes went wide. This can't be.
Dahan-dahan akong lumingon sa gilid ko, just to see Lu Han. May hawak siyang dalawang libro habang gulat na nakatingin sakin. Namumuo na yung luha sa mata niya. Ngumiti ako.
Nabitawan niya yung mga librong hawak niya at umiiyak na lumapit sakin.
He looked at me with worried. He looked at my body, his tears really can't stop now.
"L-luhan...." I whispered.
And then he hugged me. "W-what happened, Baek?" He asked, sobbing.
He gently pulled back. Luhan is my bestfriend, together with Kyungsoo. I don't want to leave them before but, I need to be confine. My body is really getting weak. Everyday, I know, my body is losing strength. And I know, i will leave this world, suddenly.
I shook my head. "Don't be too worried for me, Im fine" I lied. I am hurt and pain. And its lethal.
"Y-youre not." He said sobbing. "Tingnan mo yang sarili mo. You're sitting on a wheel chair. Wearing mask. And you're already skinny"
"But Im still beautiful" I said laughing. "As always"
But he just gave me a deadly glare. "How could you, Baek."
I smiled. Luhan is my bestfriend since we we're young. He's always there for me. And I am too for him. We're like siblings. We treat each other like siblings. And Im really hurt when I left him.
"Baek, let's go. Baka magalit sa'kin si Dr. Kim" bulong sakin ni Nurse Jung.
Napatingin ako ng malungkot kay Luhan. "We need to leave already, Lu" nakita ko naman yung lungkot sa mata niya. "But you can visit me. Sa Lee's Hospital ako naka-confine. You can always visit me there."
"B-baek..."
.
"Lu, namiss talaga kita." I hugged him. "But, Luhan. Please don't tell anyone na nakita mo ko. It should be only between us."
Luhan looked at me with confusion, frowning "Why?"
"Im going to explain it to you next time"
Umalis na kami. While Im crying.
Chanyeol's POV
Bored akong nakatingin kina Kai at Kyungsoo na nagtatawanan sa harapan ko. Wala pa si Sehun, malamang hinahanap non si Luhan.
Napatingin ako sa punit-punit na sulat sa harapan ko. Almost everyday, im receiving a letter from an unknown person. But im always stripping the letter. I don't care. I just really don't. The hand writing is really familiar. And I don't remember, when and where I saw that handwriting.
"I love you, babe" Kai whispered then kissed Kyungsoo's forehead.
Psh. They're doing the PDA again and again.
Kyungsoo looked at me when he noticed my expression.
"Envious, aren't you?" He chuckles. "Hanapin mo na kasi si Baek."
The sudden mention of Baekhyun's name, makes me feel somehow guilty. Again.
"Psh. As If." I said "I won't find him. Tapos na yun. Hindi ko siya minahal. It was just a bet."
Kai shrugged. "I know you're guilty" he said smirking. "Both of you last for almost 1 year. And the bet will just last for 1month. Don't lie, Chan Fucking Yeol. You loved him. You have loved, Baekhyun-hyung"
I gave him a deadly glare. I just shoved everything away. I don't want to hear anything from them again. Im sure that they will pissed me off again. As always.
Its been three years since Baekhyun's gone. He was nowhere to be found. After nung nangyari, when I forced him to leave. When I pushed him away from me.
Hindi ko yun ginusto. I don't want him away from me. I don't want him to be gone. I don't want him to be hurt, to be in pain.
I wanted him the best of his life. I have loved him. You read it right, I fell in love with Byun Baekhyun. Who wouldn't? He's beyond perfect. He's smart, cute and gorgeous and all. He's a guy, but really looks like a girl. I love him so much. But I need to let him go, to protect him.
Clíche but my mom threaten me. Kung hindi ko daw hihiwalayan si Baek. Masisira lalo ang buhay niya. Her mother is my father's first love. Pero dahil sa in-arrange marriage si Mom and Dad. Kailangan hiwalayan ni Dad ang nanay ni Baek. Years after, my Dad is still in love with Baekhyun's mom, but unfortunately, Baekhyun's mom is already married and she had an only child. Baekhyun.
When my mother found out about my relationship with Baekhyun. She started to threatened me. I don't care about the bet. I don't care If i will lose the bet, because if I will be losing because of Baek, Im still a champion. Having him in my arms.
I hurt him and Im suffering. And I deserve it. I should fight for him. But I never did some actions towards it. And it's killing me.
Im secretly finding him. But still, I don't heard some news about him. If he fell for someone else. Hindi ko na alam kung ano pang mararamdaman ko.
Im going to find you, Baek. And I will win you back.
