After my sister past away, I have been doing things other teens should not do. I have been doing drugs and I would come home at midnight very drunk. I know your Probly gonna say, "don't teens already do that?" We'll yes but most teens don't have to go to a class to learn about babies because their mom got knocked up by some dude that she met at the bar. And now he left her pregnant. Why does my life got to be so messed up. First my sister died, now its just me and mom ( for now) because dad is in prison for life because he decided to have a killing spree for no reason, And all mom does is look in the mirror holding her stomach and listening to "Crying Out For Me" by Mario. And when i ask her a question it have something to do with Alex. Like this morning I asked her if she would like breakfast and she would just say " you know, Alex used to like breakfast. She would just sit at the table and eat Lucky Charms while watching Spongebob." I have to do everything now, I mean now I have to fix my own food when I only know how to make eggs. The only time she would leave her room is to get food, Shop for food, and make sure I'm still alive. I've tried to hang myself once or twice and ever since I found out that I am going to be the oldest.
I don't know what to do now. If Alex was here still, I bet we would be building a fort right now. Hanging blankets from wall to wall. Things are really different to, like at school everyone feels bad for me. Everyone wants me to sit with me at lunch, and the wierdest part was my crush, Nathan asked me out. I kinda freaked out because that was the very first sentence he ever said to me. I said yes even though I can't date till I'm 40 years old, but mom won't find out because the only sentence I hear from her now is "I love you" and "I'm going to the store." that's it really. But I still Love her.
