You had my heart in your hands (free de la hoya x reader)

|Chp 22|A gift from her

⚠️Waring⚠️
This chapter contains self harm if you get easily disturbed by this or get queasy on this topic please don't go any further

You have been warned
~.~.~

~Your P.O.V~

I wake up and see Free sleeping while his arms are wrapped around my waist, I get closer to him and place a kiss on his forehead he smiles in his sleep and I get off the bed making sure he doesn't wake up and change "(y/n)...dont leave me" says a sleepy voice, I turn my head and see Free half awake half asleep "ok" I smile at him and once I'm done changing I head to the bed and lay down next to him

~Time skips~

I wake up from my nap and see Free is awake "Free I need to go" "where are you going to go?" "I need to find a new team to join" I look at him and he nods his head I leave the room and head to town, once I get there I sit on the fountain "hey (y/n)!" say two familiar voices in sync, I look to the side to see Kenji and Kazumi "long time no see" I smile at them "what are you doing here without Free?" asks Kazumi

"well I got kicked off BC Sol so now I have to search for a team to join" I sigh and look down at the floor in disappointment for letting Shasa win the rivalry as thoughts begin to pop in my head "well umm...I have to go" I say trying to rush back "ok see ya (y/n)" says Kenji as he hugs me and plants a kiss on my forehead as Kazumi smiles and waves

~Time skips~

as I walk back to my room Shasa grabs my wrist and begins with her nonsense "(y/n) just admit it, I'm way better than you and that Free will never love you" at that moment I freeze and begin to over think if Free ever liked me even as a friend "Fr-Free will never lo-love me" I hesitate

"good girl now go to your room and just do whatever...oh by the way I got this for you" she hands me a small and thin rectangular box, I head to the room and slowly open the box only to reveal a sharp and shiny blade with a note on the top of the box

~Note~

'Just in case you get any ideas about my boyfriend and if you do pretend that the blade is the ideas let it out on your wrist and arms as if they're paper to jot down your ideas, I tried to find the most tempting one there was I hope you enjoy with all your heart

~Love
        Shasa♡;)
~End of note~

I stare at the blade for a while then hear the door creak open I quicly put the blade back in the box and hide it under my pillow "(y/n)? are you in here?" "yea I'm here" "so I talked to Chris and she said she'd love to have you back on the team" he beams "really?! tell her I said I want to join the team again" I shout and he leaves the room to her office I rummage through Free's stuff and find his phone

I unlock it with my finger print and go through his messages with Shasa

~Texts~

Shasa: so what time do you want to meet up?

Free: I don't want to meet up with you!

Shasa: Idc you know what will happen if you don't come

Free: ...fine

Shasa: does 4pm sound good?

Free: ...sure whatever

~End of texts~

I put his phone back and act as I didn't see anything he comes back with a smile on his face "she said ok" "that's really nice...what time is it?" I question him "itsss 3:50pm...shiiii I have to go, Ill come back (y/n)" I nod my head and just go with the flow

~Time skips~

I soon got bored and was about to take a nap when suddenly I got a text, I unlock my phone and see that Shasa sent me something, I open it and see a photo of her and Free kissing my heart breaks I put my phone on my bed and rush to the bathroom, I look at the mirror as it reflect me with my hair all messed up and my eyes streaming with tears

I wipe my tears away and walk back to my bed as I plop back onto my bed the box that Shasa gave me falls to the ground, I open it and slowly take the blade out the box as I sit next to the box I run my finger down the blade and it begins to bleed, I unknowingly bring the blade to my wrist and let it cut across my (s/c) skin as red liquid begins to come out

slowly the number of cuts increase and more blood comes out, I put the blade away and hide it in the bathroom then cry myself to sleep

~Time skips~

I wake up and here the door creak open to reveal Free I quickly look away and pull the blanket over my head "I'm back" he says in a cheerful tone "...oh...hey...you're back" I say in an emotionless tone he then sits on my bed and turns me to look at him, I try to avoid eye contact "what's wrong" he asks "nothing" I answer back avoiding eye contact

"you're lying somethings wrong" "n-no I'm not" I stutter "(y/n) look at me in the eyes and tell me that you're not lying" I look at him on his eyes "I'm not lying" I look up at the ceiling  "you're lying let me see your phone" I try to reach for my phone but he grabs it before me and puts in his finger print

he looks through Shasa and my messages

~Text~

Shasa: *picture of her and Free kissing*

(y/n): thanks for the gift I'm for sure going to use it after seeing this :'(

Shasa: no problem :)

~End of text~

"(y/n)... Shasa and I didnt kiss and she gave you a gift? where is it? I want to see" I look down at my hands "I hid it I only have the box" I say softly but loud enough for him to hear me

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I'm sorry that I made this chapter like this but I wanted to move the book forwards and not just stay at one place because I have ideas for a future chapter that will consist of (y/n)'s twin sister :) but if you read this I hope you enjoyed this chapter and like the twist kind of well bye for now :)

~Ayato-kun17